Thursday, June 18, 2015
So quick recap on what has been going on in my life.
Joined a gym across the street from my office in the middle of November. Goal was to run 1 mile 3x/wk until I could run a 7 min mile before increasing time gradually upto 30 minutes. Got as low as 9:33 but a routine never took off and I struggled to run even once a week. I've lost to date about 15 pounds in the last year. The method I used to get the weight off was actually eating 1000 calories of next to no carbs for as long as possible. I've done this 3 times, each time lasting about 11 days before I cave in some social setting which triggers cravings and I just can't keep the low cal/no carb thing going. I lose about 8-10 pounds in those 11 days and gain about 4 pounds of it back almost overnight, then maintain until I can stand the no carb diet again. I've been enticed by the quick weight loss and the idea that by X date I could lose 20-30 pounds but realistically I can't keep the diet going long enough. The lack of carbs makes me so tired and foggy.
So after a year of really trying to get the weight off the quick way that I know actually works, I am succumbing to the slow and steady way. It's been a year and I've only lost 1 size. It is sooo hard to have the patience to get the weight off the right way when I can just restrict carbs and drop a size in 2 weeks. There is always some event or some deadline that I really want to be back to old size for. There is always some ex-boyfriend that I want to get skinny to throw it in their face. I always want it to happen faster. But gosh dangit, I've been thinking this way for nearly 10 years now. First it was shocking everyone after summer break, then it was starting college skinny, then it was making my hs bf regret breaking up with me, etc.. it's always something. July 30th, I'm flying to Denver to see my best friend and maybe meet up with my guy best friend who I believe is the one for me. He saw me in January when I weighed 185. I want to make his jaw crash to the floor this time. But there is always something. And you know how the saying goes, "a year from now you wish you started today." Well it's just like that. As much as I want it off immediately, 1 year later, I'm only 15 pounds down and I know if I just go slow and steady I can lose 40-50 pounds in that time frame.
It's not as important to me anymore about what I look like either. It is really sinking in that eating healthy is insurance for a better quality of life and eliminating medical expenses. Regular exercise keeps us young and agile to experience life to the fullest. Good food + good exericse keep the mind stable. I can not go on ignoring how vital all of this is. Seems obvious but so many ignore it. Sure eating healthy is not as yummy but neither is flossing, cleaning the toilet, or washing clothes. It's time to be responsible. My one and only body, better treat it right.