Fat People Pictures
Thursday, June 18, 2015
Posting new pictures of myself was one of my many Spark goals this year. And I was actually very excited to finally get to post new pictures of myself until..... I ACTUALLY STARTED TO LOOK FOR PICTURES.
This year I have taken more pictures of myself then past years so I was so proud of myself. Before today I thought "wow, I will have some really great photos to share with SP". To my surprise most of the pictures I have take are head-shots. "Where is the rest of my body?"
This was very disturbing and really sadden me because I knew I was not happy with my body but my gosh... I did not even realize that it was to this extent that I would totally cut my body out completely. I have no comparison pictures, cute outfit pictures, goofy pictures or anything!!!! Just a face. Which led me to another question, clearly I've been uncomfortable in my own skin for quite a while so what the hell.... how do I keep regressing to this point? Case and point for the last two going on 3 months I have been losing and gaining the same 5lbs.
I spoke to a friend of mine who is also trying to lose weight and when I told her this she just laughed because she does the same thing or hide behind her children or other people. How am I suppose to change my body if I cant even stand looking at myself. I mean "my whole self" if I did not even realize I had such deep rooted despise for my body? This was a huge eye opener for me.
So after a good laugh with one of my best friends, I've decided to take the high road and learn a lesson from this experience. Starting with no more head shots!