When Life Throws You...Boulders...
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Any time we make a change to ourselves, we begin to see the world around us more clearly. We find out where priorities lie and who our true friends are. We begin to see the people around us change and those changes aren't always a good thing. Sometimes we learn that the people who we thought we our friends and supporters are in fact not friends at all.
What is a person to do when those people turn out to be not only a false friend but even worse, a person out to sabotage your success? How do you protect yourself from those types of people and how do you move past the hurt they've caused you? Do you prevail or do you fail?
Recently I learned the cold hard truth about a couple of so called "friends". I learned of the intent of one of them to even go as far as to jeopardize my career. On top of that, the other one was part of is as well. What would possess a person to go so far as to make up lies about someone who has trusted and confided in them? Lies so terrible and hateful that they could ruin a career and hurt a person financially.
As an individual who has always struggled to get ahead in life not only with my health but all over the board, I have had a particularly rough time understanding why someone would want to hurt a person who has zero threat to them in any way. Is it because I've begun to show my strength through my health transformation or is out of sheer hatefulness? Are they really going to gain anything out of hurting me and burning bridges? Do they sleep well at night knowing the pain they've chosen to inflict? Do they think its funny to make me work with them everyday knowing what they've done?
I have chosen not to allow this blow to negatively affect my health transformation. They gym has actually be a great help in reducing stress. I don't feel the urge to stress eat like I would before, but instead have nearly no appetite at all. I do however feel down. I used to enjoy going to work for the day and had a great time interacting with my co-workers. Now I get ready in the morning and dread the fact that I have to go back. I sit to myself and wait and stare until it's okay to leave or until they've left so I can feel comfortable.
All I have ever wanted was to be happy in all aspects of my life. I have a beautiful family and have finally gotten my health on track, but now I have turmoil everywhere else. Why must we trade happiness in one area of our lives for happiness in another area? We can't happiness go full circle?
I must not give up on myself. I must have strength. The only person with the power to overcome my trials and sorrows is me. I can beat this. I will persevere.
"A diamond is a piece of charcoal that handled stress exceptionally well"