Last night as I was trying to get to sleep, for some reason I kept hearing a song over and over in my mind. It was Janis Joplin singing Me & Bobby McGee. I could remember most of the song, but couldn't remember how it started. This morning I had to look it up on YouTube.
I played it over and over, and realized I had tears streaming down my face. I can't say why I was crying, but something about the song touched my soul. I felt sad and nostalgic, thinking about my youth I suppose. I felt a release of emotions...a "good cry."
Later I listened to more Janis Joplin songs, Ball and Chain, and Try. I danced around to those songs, to get some exercise in for today.
But I kept thinking about the lyrics from Me & Bobby McGee, in particular, "you know, feeling good was good enough for me."
I thought about how we all just want to feel good. For me, it often is by eating something that tastes good. For others, maybe it can be shopping, alcohol, etc. I thought about Janis Joplin and her sad overdose, just trying to feel good. I thought about myself and how my food choices are slowly killing me, and that things have to change.
I'm going to try to get to feeling good by listening to music and dancing around instead of using food today. I remember how I used to love listening to music, but I don't take enough time for it these days. With YouTube, the options are endless. I plan to check out more Janis Joplin songs later today. I always liked Summertime.
I'm thinking I'll blog more frequently, with what I'm listening to and dancing to that day. We'll see where the music, dancing, and emotions take me. All I can say is that today the music feels like therapy, healing something, like a big hug.