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Trying a new approach

Tuesday, June 09, 2015

Hi Sparkfriends! I've not been posting much, because I haven't had much new to say. I've been doing a lot of thinking, though. I've spent the past few months trying to observe myself and figure out why I make some of the choices I do. I've come to a few realizations and I think I'm ready to put some of my thoughts into actions.

I've realized that I can't lose weight or get healthy just to please someone else. Not to please my doctor, or my family, friends, or society. I've got to do this for me, and only for me. It's my struggle, and I own it. This makes it personal and meaningful to only me.

I've also realized a lot of my weight struggles have to do with my mental outlook. When I'm feeling happy and upbeat, I make better food and exercise decisions. When I'm not feeling well physically, or I'm feeling blue for whatever reason, I don't make healthy choices.

So, my plans for this summer are to try to focus on achieving a good mental outlook and make healthy choices.

I've reset my weight ticker. Before I was embarrassed to put my starting weight, but I've decided to be honest. My highest weight was 220, I had lost down to 208, but then regained up to 216 where I am now. Instead of listing my goal as losing 70 pounds (which it was before, to get down to 150), I'm listing my goal as getting below 200. I think I'd feel healthier if I could get under 200 pounds.

My plans are to try to live in the moment and take it day by day. I plan to evaluate myself during times when I'm not feeling happy or I'm in pain, and try to figure a way out of it that involves a healthy choice (instead of an unhealthy choice). I hope to try some meditation and yoga. I want to concentrate on making a mind-body connection, and instead of trying to numb any aches and pains or bad moods (which is what I realize I was doing with food), I want to just experience it and learn how to make the pain stop, or at least learn how to live with it. If needed, I'll take the pain medicine, but I won't numb the pain with food.
Today I'm dealing with back pain. I pulled a muscle yesterday, just reaching for something on a shelf. I'm going to try some gentle stretching and breathing exercises.

Best of luck to everyone who happens to read this. Hope you are having a good day.

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    1498 days ago
    You did some great yhinking. I do believe you get it. Now you've got this.
    1821 days ago
    I like the way you are thinking. I do believe you are on to something, having had a somewhat futile 6 months myself in terms of conventionally measurable results. Changing focus from weight to health and understanding our eating so that we can make better informed choices makes a lot of sense.
    Lots of luck and a hug from an unseasonably chilly East Anglia.
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    1822 days ago
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    Rosemary, your new approach is very wise. You can't lose for anyone else than you. And counting calories and tracking exercise is great, but only goes so far. It comes down to "why do I eat?" and "when do I do this extra eating?" What am I using the food for? How can I meet this need without food?

    My weight is about in the same range as you. I got down to 200, and I really felt better. I've always thought I should weigh about 140-150, because this was a good weight when I was in my twenties. At that time, I thought I was fat and should weigh 125-128, because the wacka-doody weight recommendation chart said so. But when I look at pictures of myself then, I was just right. Then.

    When I got to 200, I thought, "How am I ever going to get to 140?" Honestly, at this point, I am revising my standards. I may not want to restrict my food to maintain that weight.

    I am also looking into meditation and yoga. Yoga classes are pricey, but there are online sites with classes. I subscribed to one, "Yo-Fi", with a discount from my health insurance. Affordable, and no one's elbow up my nose, like I experienced in a yoga class at a gym I belonged to.

    Nice to see you blogging again. Hope your back pain eases up.
    1822 days ago

    You are doing good finding out what works for you. I hope your back is better soon, I would rather have a tooth ache. emoticon
    1822 days ago
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