Keep Going - Day 3
Thursday, June 04, 2015
Yesterday after work was pretty exhausting. My boyfriend also had a bad reaction to pre-workout and didn't get much sleep the night before. So as I'm struggling to keep awake, he wanted to "relax" for a few minutes. I laid with him for a while per his request, and was a little frustrated when he closed his eyes and fell asleep. I almost wanted to get angry; tell him I'm already struggling so much and that if I went to sleep it will just take control over me all over again. But it wasn't his fault, and I had to understand that he has his own wants and needs too. So instead of letting it get to me and becoming angry at him for no reason, I left him alone for a nap, and went out for a walk.
It wasn't the best walk I've ever had. My body sort of felt stiff for some reason and I wasn't happy about the looks people gave me due to my wearing a tank top. I'm obese, have fatty arms, and I'm wearing a tank top... I'm sorry it hurt your eyes so much to look at me.
Anyway, but I did it, and although still frustrated, I felt a bit more awake afterwards. I was mighty hungry but wasn't craving chicken, so I made a bowl of low calorie grits (which filled and satisfied me!) I watched the new episode of one of my favorite shows and went to bed.
This morning I felt much better. No stimulants, just re freshness that I haven't felt for a few weeks now. Months even! Don't get me wrong, I'm still a bit on the sleepy side and could definitely go for a nap, but I feel like doing things, and that made me productive. So far today I've had my Shakeology which I'm surprisingly enjoying the taste of now, got many things done at work (just because I can), and getting ready to prepare lunch. I'm still not craving chicken, so I decided that I'm going to make grits with some eggs and cheese, almost like a scrambler! Those who know of and enjoy grits... how delicious does that sound?!
Gym is on my schedule for later, and if nothing else, I'll take a walk like yesterday. I know today is just one day of feeling good, when I've had many many horrible ones that I had to toughen up through. But you know what? This one good day is bringing a feeling I've also haven't felt in a long time... hope. And hope is one of the most precious feelings I can have right now.
Let's keep jumping hurdles, my friends.