Do I Like Myself?

Saturday, May 30, 2015

I've been asking myself that a lot over the last couple of days. Looking back at my old blogs, I wonder why I didn't follow through with the things I said I was going to do. It wasn't because I didn't mean what I said when I said it - I think I just have a problem with commitment and don't like myself enough to do whatever it takes to be the best person I can be health-wise and weight-wise. My good intentions just seem to die on the vine. Do I think it will be different this time? I don't know. All I do know is that I tracked yesterday and today and so far, so good. Maybe it's time to just relax and let it happen. emoticon

I have been doing a good deal of thinking about the "whys." Why I never got to my goal weight; why I yo-yo around, year in and year out; why I don't just take the bull by the horns and get this done. One of my conclusions is that I have always had do everything I do perfectly. This was expected of me as a child and it carried over into my adult life and, as a result, I put way too much pressure on myself. What results is that as soon as I have a slip-up or go over my calorie range one day, I can't deal with the "failure" and I just give up and quit - until the next time I try again. I want to end this and step out of this revolving door. emoticon

What I'm going to do is simply this: I am going to give my plan the best shot I can each day. When I have a good day, I will be thankful for it. When I have a bad day, I will still be thankful for that day. And, when the bad days come I will look forward to the next new day and try to make it better. I will try to stay true to my exercise schedule but if I don't get to the pool or the gym, I will not beat myself up and give up. Maybe if I go a little easier on myself, I will get this 32 pounds off by my birthday emoticon . That would be a great gift to myself and it is time I start liking me and being as forgiving with myself as I am with others. emoticon
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    I could have written this blog myself, you sound so much like me and my own struggle. But emoticon emoticon
    2144 days ago
    Hi Carol!

    emoticon I've missed you. I hope you are here to stay!!! I'm sorry that you have to question yourself as to where or not you like yourself! I like you very much!!!! You are a beautiful woman with a wonderful & sensitive personality!!!

    I know what you mean about doing things perfectly - I was the same way - but NO ONE is perfect and there is no such thing as doing it PERFECTLY! We don't become failures or fail if we stray from our weight loss goals!

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    Your friend,
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    P.S. How are Polly & Panut doing???
    2151 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/31/2015 1:58:08 AM
    Perfectionism is so hard to conquer! I am one of those, too! It pops it's ugly head in so many ways we don't even see it for what it is!
    You have a good plan! It's not about perfection, it's about improvement! Think of getting points for all the positive don't fail, you just earn points!
    Wishing you the best!
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    2151 days ago
    You say you don't like failure, isn't that what giving up is? If you keep trying your best ok, but if you quit then you fail.
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    It appears that you have figured this out in your mind, as well as on paper. However, did you seek God about this? The Word says, "You have not, because you ask not." It also says, "Seek and you will find...." Have you sought God and asked Him, what He thinks and what He wants to do, as He's reshaping His Temple, your body? What do you have to lose, except your 32 pounds and so much more to GAIN!!!


    - Nancy Jean -
    2152 days ago
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