Ode to Changes
Friday, May 29, 2015
Where do I begin?
This journey has been one of the most amazing things I have experienced in my lifetime. On top of that, it has also been one of the very hardest things!
When you're someone who has struggled for as long as you can remember to fit society's image of "healthy", you learn to have a certain mindset. You tell yourself things like "I can't" and "I'll always be this way" and "I'm not worth it". What you never tell yourself is "I CAN and WILL do this".
For many years, I continued to see the scale rise. I'd loose a few here and gain a few there and spiral through a viscous cycle. Last summer, I used spark for the first time. Lost an okay chunk and then lost the drive and gave up. Over several months, I gained a portion of it back but not all. Then two and a half months ago, my four year old daughter came up to me and said I was chunky and that I was too fat to get on her bed with her. IT HURT MORE THAN I COULD EVER IMAGINE.
No one wants their children to have that image and more importantly, I didn't want her to grow up thinking it was okay to be unhealthy like mommy. That was the moment my mind took control of the fight!
I never could have imagined that I could have ever have the drive and determination I have found this time around. I have literally become addicted to exercise! AND...I love every second of the sweat and the burn!! I look forward to fitness activities instead of dreading them! WOW!
10 days ago, I turned 25. I know that I am only going to live once and that I need to make the most of the life I've been given before it's too late. I want my daughters to see my as a strong and amazing person that they can grow to be proud! I am so happy I have made this plunge and that spark has been able to help me with every step!!
NEW DAY, NEW LIFE, NEW ME, NEW EVERYTHNG!!!!
75 DAY CHANGES: 32LBS AND 31.75 INCHES TAKEN DOWN!!!!