Tuesday, May 26, 2015
I am not new to the weight loss adventure world, nor new here. Although I have been gone for a few years from this site.
My weight gain began when I turned 30. I stopped smoking (Yay!!!!). I also found out my thyroid decided to stop working for me and I became hypothyroid. Plus, when I was 25, I had a complete hysterectomy, due to severe endometriosis. Whew!
In my 30th year, I went from a size 6 to a size 18. I felt alot of things after the weight gain. A sense of loss, regret, anger, depression... those are just a few of the emotions I went through.
Over the past five years, I have "dieted" off and on and have tried to exercise on a somewhat regular basis. Eating the right foods has been hard for me. I love carbs! And I love the cajun food I am accustomed to.
In the beginning, I just wanted my skinny body back. And I hated myself as I was.
But I have two teenage daughters. How can I teach them to love themselves if I am not doing that!?!
So my motivation on my adventure to fit has shifted. It shifted from trying to be skinny to trying to find a balance in my life. That is what I am teaching my children. It shifted from self-hate to self-love. Instead of trying to "change" myself, I am trying to BETTER myself!
My ultimate goal is to be healthy and happy. If weight loss is a side effect of that, then great. For now, I work on making smart choices, staying active and providing my children with a positive and healthy home.