Some of you know that I was recently in a wedding. I was the maid of honor for my sister. I'm overweight, and was obliged to wear a strapless satin gown. *shudder*
I'm also an amateur photographer , and an avid scrapbooker, so I love going through pictures and designing album pages.
Immediately after the wedding, I looked at the pics taken by friends, and was so horrified that I put them away, and got fairly depressed by the whole thing.
Last night I looked at them again, hoping to do another page. Nope; it was just as horrifying. And I have yet to see any of the professional pix.
My sister's birthday is coming up, and I was hoping to put together small album for her, but I just can't do it.
Yes, I get the whole negative body image issue.
So why can't I get my act together and fix the issue???
Of course this issue is more than just my weight. It's about how I see myself and how I use food for other than just nourishing my body, and there's more to it than that, I'm sure. Like my desire to avoid exercise. Ugh!
Two years ago, I started following the Eat To Live program, mostly, and did really well on it. So why can't I get back on it? Is it that I'm resisting detox? Hormones? The change?
Seriously, I'm tired. Physically and mentally. I just want to sit on the sofa and watch TV. OMG!!!