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Need an attitude adjustment!

Thursday, May 14, 2015

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Some of you know that I was recently in a wedding. I was the maid of honor for my sister. I'm overweight, and was obliged to wear a strapless satin gown. *shudder*

I'm also an amateur photographer , and an avid scrapbooker, so I love going through pictures and designing album pages.

Immediately after the wedding, I looked at the pics taken by friends, and was so horrified that I put them away, and got fairly depressed by the whole thing.

Last night I looked at them again, hoping to do another page. Nope; it was just as horrifying. And I have yet to see any of the professional pix.

My sister's birthday is coming up, and I was hoping to put together small album for her, but I just can't do it.

Yes, I get the whole negative body image issue.

So why can't I get my act together and fix the issue???
Of course this issue is more than just my weight. It's about how I see myself and how I use food for other than just nourishing my body, and there's more to it than that, I'm sure. Like my desire to avoid exercise. Ugh!

Two years ago, I started following the Eat To Live program, mostly, and did really well on it. So why can't I get back on it? Is it that I'm resisting detox? Hormones? The change?

Seriously, I'm tired. Physically and mentally. I just want to sit on the sofa and watch TV. OMG!!!

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  • MJLUVSANIMALS
    We all go through it. In our world today, the thought is, why deprive. Well in some cases body image, and our health, overrule that idea. It's all in the way you see yourself.
    I myself have been going through some stress that has totally knocked me back, seriously! So my thing is, do I want to feel sick, bad and hate my look? Or do I want to feel freaking great, and seriously healthy!! Of course it's choosing the second one, but like you, I am at a point to step up my game, or feel crappy in all ways. I hate my picture taken btw. But if I did, and saw that it upset me. On the frig it goes. If in my face, I may want to take those steps. I will, but it's a hard road back. I hope things work out for you. emoticon
    1130 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    oh boy I know how you feel..its back and forth some days are great an then there are the other days
    1157 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    Be kind to yourself!

    Hopefully the professional photos won't be too unkind as Christina said they do usually try to get the best angles.

    Step by step, even tiny steps emoticon emoticon
    1160 days ago
  • MICKEYH
    I wish I can give you a sounds great advice but I'm also strangling with body image issue. I heard or read somewhere you talk w mirror and tell yourself that you care and love yourself. That'll work some people but I havnt try yet. Hope you'll feel better soon. emoticon emoticon
    1160 days ago
  • CAPECODBABE
    I agree, baby steps is the only way to go.

    I lost lots of weight when I first tried Weight Watchers (of course I gained it all back when I stopped following the plan) My next couple of attempts didn't work as well as the first.

    What I got from that experience was diets don't work for me, because I can't commit for the rest of my life.

    I learned, and I need to make small changes that I can live with. No more diets, just baby step changes.
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    1160 days ago
  • CHERRY-TREE
    My thought is that usually the professional pictures are a lot better than the ones friends and family take. So maybe the professional pictures will do you good.

    Remember, be gentle with yourself... don't tell yourself to just fix the issue or get your act together.

    I am reading HAES as you know. It points out that our weight is not nearly as much a matter of something we can control as many media would have us believe.
    I think you too must have heard / read that research outcome says that more than NINETY FIVE per cent of people who lose weight gain it back (and more) in the five years after they lost it? Do you realize that there are millions of women all struggling with this?
    Maybe it is just that for some of us, our body will resist weight loss. And this works over YEARS, says the book. So I have thought that even though I lost 50 lbs ten years ago and kept it off for 2 or 3 years, maybe I gained a lot of this back in part because my body's 'set point' has been raised by all the dieting.
    Maybe it's genetical in part. Maybe it is that you have been exhausted too often in the past year. Maybe it's also a matter of becoming better at setting boundaries, saying NO to people who demand too much of you, taking more me-time...

    I just hope and wish for you to feel okay about yourself and know yourself as the beautiful, kind, funny, smart lady that you are. emoticon

    1161 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/14/2015 1:38:33 PM
  • PROPMAN1
    First baby steps. If you can take a walk outside. If weather does not permit-walk in place during cmmercials (some of them are long). However you start-DO ITFOR YOU!! That's an important component. emoticon
    1161 days ago
  • VEG_GIRL04
    So far you've figured out what you want to do, now sit down and make a list of the why's. And don't write things like "to lose weight." Write things like "to be stronger" "to prove to myself I'm worth it" "to love myself".

    You can do this. The first step is the hardest step - so turn the tv off for 30 minutes today and just go for a walk. Take one step towards your goal. Don't do it for me. Or for pictures, or parents, or anyone else - do it for you!
    1161 days ago
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