Tuesday, May 05, 2015
So, day 2 of blogging! It's a start, right?
Yesterday was rough. I had one of my "hungry" days and fought really hard to fight against it. And then my coworkers invited me out to dinner and it all went to hell. Two ciders and 4 chicken fingers later (and some fries). *sigh* It could have been worse, I guess. What I didn't do is go home and snack some more. I thought about it, but I didn't. I went up to my room and chilled out on the bed away from the kitchen. I also walked a lot more yesterday than I have in a long time. It sounds ridiculous considering what I did, but in relation to what I have been able to do, it was a lot. I walked 1/4 mile in from work, 1/4 mile back to the car, then had to park in another garage and walk from it to the restaurant and back again (not 1/4 of a mile, though).
Today will be better. I hope.
I'm having a hard day today. I'm sad. My car is in the shop. I need about $1000 in repairs and I can't afford any of it. I'm super lonely right now and asking myself what the point is and just plain hating life right now. I hate having no one to talk to every day. Even when we were fighting (all the time), I still had someone to talk to. That part really sucks. You can only say so much to your kids and they're so busy with their own lives. I don't like this part...
Plan for the day -
Breakfast: My regular whole wheat English muffin with cheddar cheese and 2 Jimmy Dean turkey sausage patties (they're tiny) and coffee with almond milk creamer
Midmorning Snack: Chobani Pineapple yogurt with Naturebox Chocolate Almond Granola
Lunch: Bologna sandwich, small Asian chopped salad, cauliflower with french onion dip
Midday Snack: Snappea Crisps
Dinner: Salmon, roated potatoes and steamed broccoli
If I do all that, I should be well within my 1800 goal. I do want to paint my room tonight for exercise...I hope that happens...but I can never tell where my head and heart are going to be at any given moment.