Getting My Act Together
Monday, May 04, 2015
The past 4 weeks or so have been a bit rough and stressful for me. My parents, who are divorced and live in different states, have both been in and out of the hospital. My father was in once but as he refuses to do what any doctor tells him, he ends up in a hospital and rehab every so often. The family text goes out that once again he is in the hospital with the details (thank goodness for modern technology). So visits to him in the hospital 50 minutes away and time spent cleaning and organizing his house for his return.
My mother has been in twice, a couple of weeks apart and lives 3 hours away from me. I have gone to spend weekends with her when she was in the hospital and then when she went home. 3 hours up and 3 hours back. In between that was Easter and my husband and I host my immediate family which was 24 people this year (I have a large family).
Exhausting but I thought I would be able to catch up with life during a stay-cation my husband and I were having the week of April 20th. Alas on Monday of my vacation I got a call from work saying I needed to go to Dublin, Ireland (where one of our larger processing centers is) to participate in a workshop the next week requiring me to leave that Sunday. My vacation was spent booking flights, hotels, finding something to wear and packing, making sure all my paperwork was in order and having calls with people at work to prepare for the workshop. My vacation to relax didn’t happen. I am exhausted mentally and physically.
Sometimes we go through times like this. It’s a reality that members of our family will get sick and we need to be there for them. Vacations don’t turn out like we had hoped and work (if we work) gets in the way of our plans and takes up some of our personal time. At times like this there is a good possibility that we lose control and spend our time just hanging on trying to get through it all. That time for me is now.
When times like this happen we hope that what we have been doing…making good food choices and getting in the activity….sticks and we continue those good habits. It didn’t for me these past few weeks though. I ate when I could and sometimes what was available was not the best choice which in turn made my body feel crappy and tired and I’ve had no energy to get the activity I needed to get. A vicious circle and now I am left feeling run down and not as good as I should be feeling. I just wasn’t strong enough mentally to keep myself healthy. The sun is out and the snow is finally gone and it doesn’t even make me feel better. Usually (and especially after the hard winter we just went through) seeing a sunny day will perk me up. But right now all I want to do is go back to bed (still on Ireland time which is 5 hours ahead of my time).
I am back from the work trip, vacation (what I actually got to have) is over, and my parents are both home. So now is the time for me to list out what the priorities are for me to get back on track. Now is the time to get outside and enjoy the weather and get that activity in. Now is the time to plan meals and make good choices. Now is the time to get my act together so that the next time I have a few rough weeks I can make it through. Life is going to happen. The stress will always be there and all I can do is prepare myself to be the best I can during that time. Right?