Fell of the spark wagon, but lost 70 lbs. LOL.
Wednesday, April 29, 2015
What a difference a year makes. I kind of gave up there. But I followed through on my plans to go travelling and spent four months working and living in the Amazon rain forest. No mirrors, no scales, no processed food.
I came back to the states feeling sane, happy and peaceful. I decided to weigh myself, figuring I had probably lost ten or twenty lbs. Turns out it was fifty. And two months later, I'm now at 70 lbs lost. I was 230 when I left in october. I now weigh 160.
I'm slowly getting back into tracking, but I can see now that I don't actually have to be hyper vigilant about it. I've learned when my body is hungry, when it's not, and when to put down the fork. I'm a clean eater and have no desire for my old msg ridden spices, and I think I've only had sugar from something other than fruit maybe twice in the past 7 months. I never had a particularly large sweet tooth, but it's scary how many things have added sugar in them that you wouldn't think of, so I'm fine with just fruit.
The one thing I didn't do when I was abroad was have an exercise routine. So that's where I need to focus. I'm currently on week five of the runners world beginner runner program. And will go do my run in a hour after my lunch of lentils and spinach digests. So I've been good with adding cardio since I've been back. Now it's time to incorporate strength training.
So all around, I feel good about where I am. My tendencies to binge starve seem to be at an end. I do still fast, but it's in no way about weight loss when I do it, so much as a need to meditate, gain clarity, and heal.
I will admit, my beliefs might not fit the western idea of weight loss. I didn't want to eat up to 1200 calories before because I wanted to lose weight as fast as possible, even though I did believe it was the minimum caloric requirement for a woman. Now, I don't care about losing the weight at the speed of light, but I no longer buy into that minimum requirement idea. I just feel better eating high quality foods but keeping it on the lighter side. I've been tracking on another app and everyday it screams at me in bold red type that I'm not eating enough. Thank you computer, but I actually am for me.
I don't want to go all conspiracy theory, but I think a huge part of America's economy is built on people being sick, overweight and unhealthy, and they need us to eat to keep that up. Why else would the USDA actually promote eggs and dairy as healthy? So I do take nutrition guidelines and info with a grain of salt now. Hence, I'll be using spark for tracking, blogging, and workout videos, but I'll keep doing my own thing. I figured out what works for me.