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My name is Kyrsten and I am addicted to...

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Hello, my name is Kyrsten, and I am addicted to flour and sugar.

These are the words that I’ve finally come to accept.

I have been dieting for most of my life and I am finally at a point where I realize I can’t “diet” anymore. I have a pattern of starting a plan (be it Weight Watchers, Atkins, calorie counting, etc) and I always fall off the bandwagon after a few days, though sometimes I’m able to keep at it a week or two.

I always promise Jacob, “Hunnie, this is it. This is the plan I know I can stick to. I am going to be healthy and we can start our real life together.” Happily ever after, right? Not so much.

I am addicted to sugar. I am addicted to flour. Just like an alcoholic is addicted to alcohol. I can’t practice moderation- I just go off the deep end. It is inevitable.

I have decided the only way for me to be set free from this “prison” I’ve kept myself captive in for so long- I need to do away with life as I’ve known it. I have to surrender my favorite foods and lay them on the altar for God. He is the only One who knows how to set me free, and this is the way. I know it.

So, on May 1st (payday and just sounds like a great day to start my new life) I am going to do away with cake, candy, soda, French bread, pasta… all the things that have been killing me. I am going to exchange it all for LIFE by adapting to CLEAN EATING!!!!!

I intend on beginning to vlog daily again. This time it really is going to be different. I am dedicated and I’ve made a promise to my Maker.

I can do this.
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  • GRANDMAFRANNY



    OH WOW !! SOUND'S LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER AND emoticon " DO IT". YOU GO, GIRL
    2268 days ago
  • FORZACHANDMATT
    Good for you - you can do this!
    2287 days ago
  • SLLYONS51
    So glad you are not giving up. I enjoy your videos. emoticon emoticon
    2287 days ago
  • ALLIE4993
    You can do it!!! I don't have a sweet tooth but I am a "meat and potatoes" kinda gal so those stick to your ribs kinda meals are what I would binge on...plus the salty and greasy foods.

    I started doing a lot of research and reading about food in America and how it is produced. It has opened my eyes and given me a new perspective on what I'm consuming.

    If you're interested in some of the books shoot me a message and I'd be happy to share!

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    2289 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/25/2015 2:29:51 PM
  • CHERI*ANN7
    Sounds like a great plan. I struggle with these things as well. I try to limit my sweets and replace them with fruits and only use honey in my tea (I allow myself one cup a day and the rest of the day drink water). You CAN do this!
    2290 days ago
  • BEACHCALSIX
    fellow sugar addict here. Overeating is a hard habit to beat. I still have issues with it today. I agree with janismkw sometimes you need help from others to get through it. Sparkpeople really helped me beat it. I joined the binge eating group a while back as well as some challenges to connect with more people. It helps a lot to talk to these women.
    Hope you're having a good week!
    2291 days ago
  • JANISMKW
    There is OA, Overeaters Anonymous, and other similar 12-step groups. The thing about being addicted is that one cannot stay away from the substance without getting help and support to do it. That's kind of the definition of addiction, you are powerless over it. One tries and fails over and over. Tries ways to manage it, control it, etc. And keeps feeling like a failure.

    I don't belong to it but I've been to meetings of an OA off-shoot, Food Addicts In Recovery (FAIR.) The people's transformations were amazing.

    I personally have found a whole new life in AA, and am sober over 10 years. I feel like everything I know about myself and life I learned in the program. It is the best kept secret. Life is so much better now, mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually.

    I wish you the best!
    2291 days ago
  • KMCASSADA0515
    Thanks everyone! MARINGAL, the reason I have to wait to May 1 is because I honestly don't have enough clean food to get me through until next payday!! Yet another reason living paycheck to paycheck sucks! LOL emoticon
    2292 days ago
  • MARINGAL
    Why wait until May 1st. Start now! ;o)
    2292 days ago
  • no profile photo CD10895053
    Well Kyrsten, you're not giving up and you've just proved that. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2292 days ago
  • MYKIDSMOM215
    You CAN do this! They have them here, might actually have them there, but there are food addict support groups. It's like AA but for people addicted to food. Might be something to look into? Glad to see you back! Missed you! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2292 days ago
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