Yesterday I really internalized that I'm not that skilled in feeling my feelings. Many times I'm either avoiding, numbing or reacting to them.
This is pretty easy to do since I spend a lot of time in my head, constantly thinking, judging, learning, analyzing, planning. While I'm very connected to my body during workouts, it's like once I'm done the switch turns off and I'm just a floating head again.
For the emotional eaters out there, do you know how to feel your feelings? Do you know what the different bodily sensations are between fear, anger, doubt, gratitude, love, confidence?
After lunch today I was craving something sweet. I wasn't hungry anymore; lunch was satisfying and took care of my physical hunger. But, there was that craving... So I hid in a bathroom stall (I needed privacy LOL), closed my eyes, and said to myself "I'm willing to feel craving, and I am" a few times. After that, I noticed where in my body 'craving' was.
I learned that the sensations of 'craving' are 1-2" below my rib cage, closer to the surface of my skin; in the middle of my throat, also close to the surface; and right behind my eyes, as if they were looking left and right hunting for food. The sensation itself is a slight buzzing, similar to when coffee kicks in.
In my mind, I'd blown up craving (and probably most of the negative feelings) to be this giant, horrible, unmanageable monster that would completely consume me. That led to overeating of course, usually to when I was uncomfortably stuffed. Instead, the experience of craving isn't that bad, and after just a few minutes of staying with the feeling, it dissipated and I moved on with my day.
The best news of all of this? Feeling feelings is a SKILL and I can learn how to master that skill by tons of practice. YES!