Tues 4/7/15 - yeah… twentyFIFTEEN. Wow.
I'm 56… turning 57 this year.
Getting more body aware, more integrated -- soft tissue, structure, spirit, …
And forty lbs I'd like to move off -- the better to inhabit
open up to
me, who since infancy has held her thumb inside her hands…. grounding.
me, whose posture so habitually compresses ribs to hips… concaving the center
me, with the big big heart chakra
me, with the big antenna
My former trainer, Jenny, once told me… suggested… Maybe being lean and strong is a different kind of Power…. maybe a great trade-in for the buffer/base/weight of holding the ground so tight.
where was I? where was I?
I had all kinds of dreams last night. About early childhood. Being quite alone in the world it seemed…. without the company of the kind of parenting/family i see my friends providing their kids. Growing up in the 60s….
And W H O O S H
So many connections to the 60s
appearing now in hindsight
Living in Big Sur area… with its identity and architecture really marked by 50s60s…
with Joe's family and friends still here since the 70s….
AND ME…. with my connections to ART IDEAS …. Modernism v Minimalism Contemporary
Go see "SEYMOUR: AN INTRODUCTION"
fabulous integration of ideas about what human experience and music and intimacy are…beyond the also very compelling portrait of this one man
I think I know that
BIGGER and SMALLER
than the way I flatten it
"you can't make all the notes important"
you can't make none of the note important either
"Do you have a duty to share your talent with others?"
I don't know.
Obfuscating for so many years
I no longer know what my "talent" is.
I know when I am MOVED.
Maybe that's a good enough 'tell'.
Back at the Spark Front.
Tomorrow I'll weigh myself and see what the last week of not-so-conscious living has translated to in body mass.
i DO want to lose 40 lbs.
and I believe i want all the things and changes and growth
and simple JustDoIT Discipline
that will take me there
bringing me here
this just past April Fool….
Let's do it!
Let's fall in LIFE!
Stand up! Stand and …..