With or without you
Sunday, March 08, 2015
Early start this morning almost 6am,I wante to write a blog yesterday but didn't have a moment,I'm still sick with whatever it is I have going on..I unfortunately didn't get to workout yesterday,I got a few paces in place and jumping jacks in but nothing that really counts.
Life wise I'm not sure if it's my lack of sleep or situation at home but I'm going through emotional lows a lot,my depression keeps coming in waves which I usually can ride out but it just bothers me that I cant fix things feel like I can't be the mom I want to be,independent women and feel powerless to get out of this pit.
Weight wise I am confident and optimistic,I didn't lose any weight this week,so I know it must be because I'm not tracking my food right or just not pushing my workouts as hard,which I know is mainly due to having only a few moments at a time.i keep thinking to myself I was here before I was over 240 before and I did it,why is it taking so long,why can't I see progress
I guess I'm just impatient because I hate being trapped in a body I know isn't me. I tried to get new sports bras since the one I have is too small and couldn't find anything that fit,I looked in the mirror and just saw how terrible my skin looked and how much bra fat I have and felt disgusted,I know I can look better but in the meantime I just want to stay hidden and not feel so unhealthy like this.