Reflecting & Recommitting
Sunday, March 01, 2015
How can it have been 6 years since I last wrote a blog? That is just crazy!! I almost didn't believe it when I saw the date of my last blog. Life has changed a lot since then. I've had two babies in the past three years and moved to a different town. The one thing that has remained constant though over the years is my love and commitment to exercise. I may have been absent from SparkPeople, but I never strayed from my healthy lifestyle.
On this rainy Sunday morning I was deciding whether or not I should run. I just wasn't feeling it today and as always during the great should I run or should I not run debate, it led to me thinking about where I am in life in relation to where I want to be. I have been a bit aimless in terms of fitness goals and life goals in general. I have a pretty good approximation of where I want to be in all areas of life, but I just don't seem to have the focus to make a plan to get there. This is mostly due to the fact that I have almost no time for myself. I have so many interests/hobbies and I feel like I'm constantly having to pick and choose which to briefly concentrate on whenever I get a spare minute. I do make time to run, but it's hard to carve that time out. I savour my running time, as it is a great way to clear my head and be alone, but I miss running with a purpose. Don't get me wrong, going out there and just running whatever mileage I please at whatever pace I feel like is very freeing, but I miss having a goal. I'm two measly pounds away from my pre pregnancy weight which sounds great, but I only gained 17 pounds and ten came off on their own, leaving me with only 5 pounds lost over the past six months and it's not like I've been sitting on the couch not paying attention to what I'm eating. Also, despite being only two pounds away from goal weight I don't feel like I look the same. I go back and look at my old blogs and feel like I was a completely different person. Although I know I don't have the same amount of time to dedicate to exercise as I did back then, I would like to try and get back there.
This will serve as my before I got serious picture. I had just completed a Jillian Michaels workout and was half way through a second one, when I was interrupted by this little monkey walking up from her nap.
I run three or four days a week, but have been very sporadic with strength training, hence why I'm probably not super happy with the way I look. Today was the day I decided to fix that. It was my first time doing this particular dvd non pregnant and it felt fantastic.
I feel like this is all a big rambling train of thought. I hope that I've been able to articulate some of what I'm feeling. I am by no means complaining. I simply want to put it out there that it is time for a change. If I'm not happy with the way I look or the direction of life there is no one who can change that but me. So I am recommitting to SparkPeople and to being more focused and conscience of my exercise. It's time to make goals and start working towards them. It always feels so good to start over. Starting is the easy part, it's the follow through that's hard, but I'm up for the challenge!