I turn to Spark in Times of Loss and confusion
Sunday, March 01, 2015
Now to convince myself to turn here everyday. It is hard to go through life changes alone, espeically when someof us have not chosen "aloneness" so much as chosing "un-abusedness". If you've never been in that situation you won't understand what I mean, but I see a lot of you nodding. Yes indeed. I never thought I would be at this point, alone and with one child passed on. I expected the day I got married the first time that I would be sitting on the porch with him now playing with our grandkids. Well, it wasn't to be, and it was for the best.
I'm lonely, I miss the child that just left home, but I do NOT, repeat DO NOT miss the drama and I am hoping this change helps me give myself permission to make necessary changes and keep them up this time (she said again, for the thirtieth time in 5 years). Good night, ladies and gentlemen. May your dreams be of kindness.......and llamas. Yes, magnificient llamas racing down the highway. Good night, my friends.