Why Don’t I Care?
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
I am having such a hard time SparkFriends. Tracking my food is frustrating at best and with everything going on in my life, I’m having a hard time staying above water. While I am keeping my healthy habits for the most part, I just don’t have the energy like I used to to track. I feel like a failure. What happened to that obsession I had to get thinner? To track my food? To be more active? I just don’t have any answers right now and while I am way past the embarrassment of gained pretty much all of the 100lbs I lost, I’m not entirely proud either. I’d like to lose 54lbs, but how in the world am I going to get there without having the emotional energy to do all that I need to do to get there? Restriction is not something that works for me. I’m contemplating in investing in some sort of meal service where I get my food pre-portioned and pre-made. At this point, I’m looking for anything that can help me and get this weight off.
Any words of encouragement or advice is very welcomed.