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Why Don’t I Care?

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

I am having such a hard time SparkFriends. Tracking my food is frustrating at best and with everything going on in my life, I’m having a hard time staying above water. While I am keeping my healthy habits for the most part, I just don’t have the energy like I used to to track. I feel like a failure. What happened to that obsession I had to get thinner? To track my food? To be more active? I just don’t have any answers right now and while I am way past the embarrassment of gained pretty much all of the 100lbs I lost, I’m not entirely proud either. I’d like to lose 54lbs, but how in the world am I going to get there without having the emotional energy to do all that I need to do to get there? Restriction is not something that works for me. I’m contemplating in investing in some sort of meal service where I get my food pre-portioned and pre-made. At this point, I’m looking for anything that can help me and get this weight off.

Any words of encouragement or advice is very welcomed.
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    You are a huge inspiration to me. Thank you for being willing to share your story. I lost 75 lbs and have almost gained it all back. I feel like a failure but I am joining you in your recommitment to health.
    1316 days ago
    1st of all...you can do this. I don't know where you are at, but I wish I could hug you physically. I'm frustrated and twisting myself, but I know we all can do this. I'm wishing you the best as you sort through this.
    1433 days ago
    1) You are an amazing person, no matter what your weight. 2) call me if you need anything. 3) why isn't SP notifying me of your blogs?? xoxo emoticon
    1476 days ago
    Don't give up. One day at a time.
    1515 days ago
  • SUGAR0814
    You can do this! Take one minute at a time! emoticon
    1515 days ago
    Rooting for you! I have gained and lost weight so many times and it really is mentally draining...
    The first week is always the hardest because of the "what's the point?" Thought.

    You can and WILL do it, push through those first days, they will be rough but you will get there!
    Have a strong fierce week!
    1516 days ago
    You might want to read the "The Gabriel Method"
    by Jon Gabriel. It really helped me over six years
    ago. Jon had "dieted' himself up to over four hundred
    pounds in his search to lose weight.

    He has maintained his current weight of around 180
    for about 10 years. He has some great ideas about
    why we cannot lose weight, dieting being one of them.

    Jon's theory is that our bodies have to want to be thin
    or we will lose and gain over and over. His theory
    worked amazingly well for me. Please contact me if
    I can support you in any way. emoticon

    1516 days ago
    Check with your dr. Sounds like low iron or depression.
    1516 days ago
    You don't care...RIGHT NOW!

    Every moment that passes offers another split second to decide, what-the-heck, maybe I *DO* care!

    We've all been there, done that with emotional slumps. Sometimes, in fact, being SO sick & tired of feeling sick & tired can offer one some powerful motivation!

    I love the expression:

    Being Fat Is Hard
    Losing Weight Is Hard
    Choose Your Hard!

    If we're going to struggle anyway, why not CHOOSE to struggle to reclaim one's health and wellness, instead of choosing to remain unhappy...?

    Here's another suggestion: think about certain people, places and activities which seemed to SPARK you in the past. Is there a way to pull that into your life NOW? Your past success offers some important keys to how you can re-SPARK yourself now.

    I'm betting on the New You, filled with SPARK!

    You really can Make It Happen!

    1516 days ago
    Good luck. My dear, as you know motivation has to come from within and that all starts with self-love, honestly! You know you have support here, so stay connected . . . that's a start. You are loved. Love yourself.
    1516 days ago
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