CANMERA

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Been a While

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Wow it has been a very long time since I posted here. My last year has been with Physio 2 times in a week. I have a hard time thinking now as I have a tbi.
My brains were smashed in the car accident and I hav efound recovery to be very hard. I can not tihnk like I used to. Nor can I live like i used to.

Life is different now. I am not the same person I used to be. I don`t even like who I have become. I am no longer that nice person who used to enjoy helping others. I am Reclusive and actually am happy being this way.

I still Love God but can not pray nor can I go to church any longer. I am frustrated with who I am and wish that life would change, but I do not see that in my future. It to me seems rather bleek since my accident.

I have been abondoned by most people that know me and those in my church. I wonder if I am worthy any longer.

I lost one of my awesome kitties last Oct. She passed away on the Friday before Thanksgiving here in Canada. She was so beautiful. Her name was Princess. I miss her so much.

Well not much else to tell. I have an approx 50% recovery which fluctuates each day. It is the best I am going to get so my hope is now gone. I hope you all do not feel that I am being anything but very honest.

I find Love hard even these days. I have not expec tation of any happiness in my life. I will trudge on and do the best I can with what I have.

Blessings to all.

Jan
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  • CANMERA
    thanks Donna for your encouragement. I am trying to get Therapy but the cost is outside of my ability to pay. I appreciate you caring to write. Thank you again

    blessings

    Jan emoticon
    1820 days ago
  • DONNA_W
    Sounds like you have a lot to deal with due to a life changing event. You may need help getting through this. Have you considered therapy? I hope you find a way to again have a positive self image. emoticon
    1820 days ago
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