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Here I go again

Sunday, February 22, 2015

Well I have been gone for about a month. Needed to take a break. I really am just tired of worrying about losing weight. I try to focus on other things but it really always come down my weight and how I think about myself. It seems that no matter how hard I try I lose a few pounds than something happens and they are back even quicker then the time before. As I face turning 60 this year I have started to wonder why I even care. I tell people I want to be healthy and I do but I also want to lose weight. I have ever excuse known to man about why I haven't lost the weight but what is the real reason? I just don't understand why I can't finish this race.

I have decided not to weigh myself. Seeing the scale stay the same does nothing to motivate me so this time I am just going to ignore it. Another thing I am not going to do is to join multiple challenges. When I do everything other members do and they lose and I don't it just depresses me. So maybe this really needs to be something I have to do for myself and not compete with others. I am going to use this blog just to journal my thoughts and hope it helps motivate me to continue.

New goals for Feburary
1. spin the wheel each day
2. keep track of food intake
3. drink 8 glasses h20 daily
4. 7500 steps daily
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  • ICEWYNDE
    One more item for your list: Every day I will think lovingly about myself and my body.

    I think your decision to stop competing with others is a sound one. We all have unique bodies and different lifestyles, so it really isn't a fair comparison anyway.

    NSV's are much more rewarding than scale numbers!

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    1238 days ago
  • MRTHING2000
    I am right there with you. I took a break and went carb-crazy so I wouldn't go mentally crazy. Of course the pounds piled back on, but I'm ready to pick up the ball and keep moving forward. I didn't give back nearly as much as I had lost--I'll consider that a 5 day 'binder' but I'm renewed and 'got it out of my system'. Now to get the weight and sludge out of the system too.

    Good goals. We need goals to keep us on track. I'm the type that gets demotivated by not meeting goals, but that's just me. But overall health and energy combined with a vague goal for long-term weight loss and maintenance is mine.
    1238 days ago
  • EVER-HOPEFUL
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  • PKCTTS
    Portia, I turned 60 last summer and know that losing weight (even setting realistic weight goals) is quite different than it was even 10 years ago. But giving into frustration and quitting sure isn't going to get us where we want to be.

    My Sparkfriends really keep me moving in the right direction (and as you know mine are all at Camp), but it has taken several years of being a pretty consistent Spark participant to get to a place where I love the people I hang out with. I have lots of goals besides losing weight, but I have to stay at least mindful of the scale or that not over eating piece of being healthy goes out the window.

    So stay with it - keep working to figure out what works for you - build lots of muscle - eat better - move as much as possible during the day and don't be so hard on yourself.

    You can do this.
    1239 days ago
  • SPERRIN2012
    I commend you for sharing your comments. It's hard for me to understand why some people are able to shed weight quicker then I am able to. I am in total agreement it is definitely disheartening to see it happening or hear it happening around you. Just be sure to be honest with your food intake tracking. I sometimes accidentally on purpose leave a little of this off of that (mostly sweets) which are the worst kind of calories carbs and fats so exercises is huge. movement movement movement you got me by about six or seven years but still we must move our bodies. Hang with it & I wish you the best. Stick to your goals plan and I agree with the person above how we feel definitely helps vs what we weigh. Water messes with our weigh ins a s well and muscle mass is heavier than fat mass so your possible losing inches.

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    1239 days ago
  • JUDITHBEAST
    emoticon Let your health define you and not your weight. I know it's easier said then done. I have to tell myself that it's pointless to stress over the weight number. I look at inches, health, energy, mood, abilities and how I feel overall. I think the goals you have are very good and doable.
    1239 days ago
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