the Importance of Choice
Saturday, February 21, 2015
I feel like ever since I admitted to myself that I have an addiction to food, I've used it as a crutch. The reality is that I have lost weight before. I have before, and I can again. Addiction or not, everything boils down to choice. Addiction does not remove responsibility. It doesn't take away the ability to make a choice.
I have lost about 8 pounds since January. While some progress is better than no progress, I feel like I could be doing more. I want to stop beating myself up over this. I'm doing what I can, and I'm learning from my previous mistakes. I have to re-motivate myself every day and remind myself what I'm doing this for. I have to remind myself that I have done this before and I can definitely do this again.
I'm going to do some grocery shopping and clean up the house.
In reality, choosing what I do with my body, and what I put into my mouth, that is the ultimate control. This will get easier. I'm falling into the jogging again. I realized how much I love it. I'm motivated again after seeing previous pictures. I want to go snowboarding again and just feel good about myself again.
We are going to start our new schedules on March 1st. Im going to be working Friday through Monday from 6:30-5:30. I'll be looking forward to having the three days off. My fiance will have the same shift as well, so we will have those days off together. That will be nice. We haven't had a day off together in a while.
Now that we're starting to stabalize and settle after our college adventure, we are going to look into doing some light traveling and just enjoy life.
Really, I'm doing ok with this weight loss thing. I'll get there. The slower it comes off, the longer it will stay off. I'll not be negative about it. I can only live here and now.