Well This Is Embarrassing
Monday, February 02, 2015
On January 10, 2011 I wrote this blog after losing 102 pounds in one year:
It's amazing how close I have come undoing all of that hard work. I am 25 pounds heavier today than I was in 2011. The last few years have been extremely stressful but really, who cares. Everyone has stress in their lives. I have no one to blame but myself. I know how to do this but I have chosen not too. I hear those old voices in my head......"it's only a bite" "it's a birthday, anniversary, wedding, funeral" "you worked hard at work today you don't need to run" "well, you've already screwed up today eat as much as you can and start tomorrow" UGH! I thought I had those voices silenced forever. I gave up being vigilant. I gave up getting at least 10,000 steps a day. I gave up journaling my food. I gave up being accountable here on SP. It's been like watching one very long train wreck........I'm putting the train back on the track today!
The crappy things I've noticed about the new larger me:
My thighs rub together again. YUK
My knees hurt
My feet hurt
I have back spasms from an old injury
I wear size 16 jeans instead of the size 10 I was comfortably wearing.
I have three sizes of clothing in my closet
I'm in the bathroom far too of often
I avoid being in front of the camera again
I get winded easily and haven't done my favorite 5 mile hiking loop in a year
Going down the slide with my grand-daughter is a tight fit
It is getting harder to want to go out I'm so embarrassed about my size
I have two weddings coming up and am trying to figure out how not to go.......I have nothing to wear. Everything nice is too small.
I TUG at my clothes constantly as they ride up over my growing tummy
I am back to having a BMI in the obese category
My bladder control is awful
Crossing my legs at the knees isn't easy anymore
I think I might be able to take flight with my "wings" my arms are so flabby now
I'm sure I can find many more negatives about my weight gain but maybe this is enough for now.
I intend to sign on to SP daily, get at least 10,000 steps and put my health first again.
I WILL get my weight under control. I WILL run at least a 5k in 2015. My grandkids will not have an obese grand mother!
Thanks for reading!