Well so much for blogging once a month last year. I just couldn't keep up with everything. It was another busy year, I will try to get you all up to speed. So still many appointments throughout the whole year. My son qualified for developmental disability services which means they pay for someone of my choosing to watch him while I have a break! It has been wonderful and very refreshing to go out on a date or just hang out with friends or my sisters! My son also qualified for SSI and even got back pay before Christmas! As for me On December 4th I was proposed to by my now fiance, I said yes & will be getting married in August of this year!!! So I have been planning for the wedding and everything that entails!!!
We have known each other for 20 months and we have a wonderful relationship! It's nice to be with someone who is on the same page as you are instead of a different book altogether. We have lots of similarities and some differences which rounds us off. Where he is weak I am strong and vise versa. We bring out the best in each other and want so much for each other. He has a daughter and I have a son. So God took two broken families and is bringing them together as one whole family!!! Already we have faced some trials and if it wasn't for God we wouldn't be together. What is awesome is that spiritually we are connected and our chemistry is out of this world!!! I never knew anything existed like this before!!! We are connected at the heart. We love and treat each other's biological child as our own. Most importantly Jesus is our foundation on which we stand!!! I can't wait to walk down the aisle and say I do to this man who God has brought into my life!!!
So many things have happened it's sooo hard to write all of them down!!! My son is now in the 1st grade. He finally got an IEP and is getting the help he needs in school as well as extra work outside of school with his therapies, counseling, and me teaching him. He did the jog-a-thon this year and went 13 laps in 20 minutes! He won out of his group and he also raised the most money for 1st grade! He raised $144.50!!! Of course I campaigned for him and collected all the money but hey, us mom's love supporting our kids!!! His texture issues are getting a lil less bothersome!!! He ate turkey for the first time, he loves turkey burgers, tried carne asada, refried beans, and other foods!!! He loves reading, school, his cat, and of course his momma!!! If your wondering what he thinks and how he feels about my fiance he totally adores him, he actually has wanted us to get married in the way beginning, him and my fiance's daughter. She calls me her new mommy and my son calls my fiance dad. They have bonded and are very close! My son has grown in soo many areas and I am sooo very proud of him!!!
As far as my ex husband, he is still up to no good. He has been harassing my family trying to find out where we are and where we live. He has been in and out of jail for many stupid and repetitive charges. I believe is isn't safe out on the streets and they should put him in a center to help him. Thing is he doesn't want help. He is living in unreality. He has told my family that we are going to get back together and be a family and he still calls me his wife. Well news flash as of this December 12th I have been divorced for a year and I ain't going back!!! I have moved on and wish that he would as well and just leave my son and I alone. At this point I sometimes wish they would ban him from Oregon!!! Or that we could just move away from him and that he could never find us... Sometimes I feel like I'm living in a nightmare unable to wake up. Only when it involves my ex husband that is...
As far as health wise, I have had my fair share of doctor appointments, MRIs' exrays, and cat scans. So far diagnosis's are as follows: Spinal Stenosis, Degenerative Disc Disease, a brain cyst, non cancerous, arthritis throughout my body, and PTSD. That has slowed my weightloss progress down but it hasn't stopped me completely... I have had to change things to better suit what I am able to do exercise wise. I know that if I keep taking steps in a positive direction and keep maintaining healthy habits that I will be at my goal weight and most importantly be stronger and healthy!!! It may not be as fast as I wish it were but I will get there!!!
With all of that being said I do think that I have caught you up to speed or at least I hope I have. Over the last year I have grown in soo many ways, I have more confidence in myself and in what I am capable of doing, I have overcome many obstacles and gone through many trials. Thanks to Jesus always being there for me and with me!!! I have learned soo much about myself, who I am, what I like, what I don't like, my personality, and sooo much more!!! This has been an exciting journey and this journey will continue on into this year!!! I know that there is a lot of great things that are in store for me and my family this year and I am excited and I just can't wait. I also know that there will be trials, obstacles, and circumstances where my faith will be tested. My only hope is that when those times come that I can still have joy and happiness and not let my feelings of the situation(s) control me but rather me control them. I know with Jesus by my side I can do all things and without Him I can do nothing!!! He is my rock!!! I thank Him everyday for all the wonderful people He has brought into my life. Some have stayed and are loyal, some have gone because what I was to learn I learned and they couldn't go with me because they were holding me back. Some have left this world because their journey had come to an end. Everyone who comes into our lives is not an accident, really there's no such thing. There is a plan and a purpose for them. I choose to rise above it all and have joy unspeakable, what do you choose?
Well good night I should get some sleep. I pray that whoever reads this gets something out of it that will inspire them and add to their life! If this inspires you in some way please let me know, thank you and have a wonderful night!!!