In the blender.......
Friday, January 23, 2015
Whirl, whirl, whirl.....
Ever feel like you are in the blender? That's me today. My head is spinning. I want a million things. I just want them. One of them is being healthier. Gee that sounds pretty simple - just eat those food groups in proper portions and move a bit each day. How complicated is that?
Obviously for this girl, it is complicated. Perhaps it isn't complicated. Perhaps I make it complicated. Yep, it's really pretty simple but I am pretty complex!
A friend at work is starting a diet....again. She asked me to join her. She and another girl are going to do the Bob Harper Skinny Rules plan. She is going on vacation and wants to look better in a bathing suit.
I thought for a minute. I told her no. Which got me thinking... which takes me to the blender...
I've been headed down this path to a healthier lifestyle for along time. I've tried so many different paths to get there and am somewhere a few steps from where I started, but a long way from where I desire to be. Each attempt and failure erodes my self esteem.
Fat people shaming, food shaming, exercise shaming..... shame, shame, shame ... you know... you wear WHAT size? you weight WHAT? are you really eating THAT? You should be eating THIS! Did I see you eat Twizzlers? OMG! You really need to exercise. You really need to be a runner. P90X is awesome. You really need to try yoga. Media does it, society does it, people we know do it, people we don't know do it --- AND I DO IT (to myself, not to you of course).
OK turn off the blender please. STOP! whirl, whirl, whirl. S_T_O_P!
No more. I am done. This is MY path! I AM moving forward.
There is no one way, there is no right way, there is no better way. Each path is as unique as it's traveler. So quit with the shame. There is no shame. You ARE changing.
I had someone put it to me simply - which works best for me. You get in a kayak and are told to meet up in the middle of the lake. Some people kayak along the shoreline and cut over to the middle, taking in all the sites along the way; others shoot straight down the middle - to be the first to arrive, others zig zag to the meeting place. Which way is the right way? They all are - the people who took the long way, can't believe those who shot up the middle missed all those sights, those who shot up the middle, can't believe those taking the shoreline wasted all that time. Guess what - each one arrived in their own manner - which is what really matters!
OK, thinking is done for today. No more shaming. No guilt. I am taking MY path! I am learning and getting stronger each day.!
I will emerge..... in MY time.