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My Feelings Taste Delicious...But the Aftertaste is Regret

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Today has been stressful, a circus filled with moments blown out of proportion by drama queens. And it's not even 2pm! In one weak moment, I scarfed down a (delicious) piece of melty, salty pepperoni pizza. I then proceeded to feel awful and fight the battle of returning for another piece....or three.

Why?! Why such an emotional response? I didn't blow my calorie-intake for the day and I don't subscribe to assigning foods with labels like "good" or "bad". I think the reason for the regret is because I KNOW BETTER. I know that I justified a coworkers birthday as a way to comfort myself quickly. I know that physical activity is a better coping mechanism. I know that I could have made time for a 5 minute meditation. I know that the homemade veggie pizza that I brought for lunch is more nutritious and satisfying. And despite all of this knowledge I went and ate my feelings anyway.

And that's that. I had a choice and I made it. I can wallow in it, feel like the day is ruined and go overeat and feel bad. But I'm not going to do that. I'm going to make a better choice and deal with this in a healthy way. I'm reaching out for support. I can stick to the rest of my eating plan for the day and still have my salad, carrots, and fruit. I'm going to meditate and reaffirm that I am still worthy of the highest level of self-care instead of "punishing" myself for not being perfect.

The struggle is real. But then again, I suppose nothing worth having comes easy.

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    Thanks! Pizza and chocolate are my biggest temptations, but I'm learning (slowly) that they don't fix the problem.
    I'm glad you could relate to my really did the trick to help keep my from throwing in the towel for the day. The reward was weighing this morning and seeing 2-pound loss! We absolutely can do this!!
    1516 days ago
    Enjoyed reading your blog. Pizza is my go-to emotional eating food. If only I could apply the same discipline I have with working out, to food!
    Here's to a better day tomorrow! We can do it!
    1516 days ago
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