Being Honest With Myself
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
So I posted a few days back in "Balancing the Budget" that I had planned out every meal and every snack for this week. And I posted in "Conviction" in yesterday's blog that we can always fight harder to resist temptation.
And despite that....I just ate 350 calories in chocolate covered pretzels that were NOT on the plan and which were not much resisted. Too late to take it back now. But at least I can learn from it now. So...
1) I skipped breakfast. Perhaps if I had had my usual protein smoothie I wouldn't have gotten this vulnerable?
2) I resisted a candy bar in the grocery store line earlier. That was a victory. I don't usually even like candy so it should have tipped me off that I was experiencing and vulnerable to a sugar craving.
3) I set myself up. I had a friend's daughter over this afternoon while she was recovering from a day surgery. I justified making the chocolate pretzels by telling myself that I was just making a fun snack. But the truth is, they aren't good for her either. And the truth is I had healthy snacks available that she would have been happy to eat.
4) I justified the indulgence by telling myself lies. "You resisted the candy bar earlier. You should reward yourself." "You didn't have the smoothie calories so eating these won't result in a calorie difference at day's end"
I'm not really sure how I take all that and prevent a repeat. I know what the right things are to say here. But it's not always that tidy. Obviously knowing the right things doesn't always change who we are and what we do. Or there wouldn't be much of a need for Sparkpeople I guess it comes down to faith and hope.
I choose to have faith that I will do better next time. I hope I will do better next time.
Nite dear Sparkfriends,