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Being Honest With Myself

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

So I posted a few days back in "Balancing the Budget" that I had planned out every meal and every snack for this week. And I posted in "Conviction" in yesterday's blog that we can always fight harder to resist temptation.

And despite that....I just ate 350 calories in chocolate covered pretzels that were NOT on the plan and which were not much resisted. Too late to take it back now. But at least I can learn from it now. So...

1) I skipped breakfast. Perhaps if I had had my usual protein smoothie I wouldn't have gotten this vulnerable?

2) I resisted a candy bar in the grocery store line earlier. That was a victory. I don't usually even like candy so it should have tipped me off that I was experiencing and vulnerable to a sugar craving.

3) I set myself up. I had a friend's daughter over this afternoon while she was recovering from a day surgery. I justified making the chocolate pretzels by telling myself that I was just making a fun snack. But the truth is, they aren't good for her either. And the truth is I had healthy snacks available that she would have been happy to eat.

4) I justified the indulgence by telling myself lies. "You resisted the candy bar earlier. You should reward yourself." "You didn't have the smoothie calories so eating these won't result in a calorie difference at day's end"

I'm not really sure how I take all that and prevent a repeat. I know what the right things are to say here. But it's not always that tidy. Obviously knowing the right things doesn't always change who we are and what we do. Or there wouldn't be much of a need for Sparkpeople I guess it comes down to faith and hope.

I choose to have faith that I will do better next time. I hope I will do better next time.

Nite dear Sparkfriends,

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    I am grateful every day for a new chance. Isn't it strange how hope never dies? No matter how many times I "mess up" and cave in to impulse eating (often for the same reasons you cite here), I NEVER stop trying to do better the next day! I'm grateful for all the chances that keep coming, and I'm grateful that for reasons I'll never understand I never abandon the quest to improve myself! I have decided never to be ashamed of "messing up" again, because I love the way my spirit always forgives me!

    You are doing great, and I thank you for this thoughtful blog.
    1754 days ago
  • EABL81
    None of us is perfect, nor do we have to be. Small slip-ups happen. Tomorrow is another chance to get it right.
    1756 days ago
    last night was annoying for me too- I went over my goal calories too (by just over 500...)
    oh well, today is another chance to do better.

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    1756 days ago
    1756 days ago
    Just make the next meal a healthy one and don't beat yourself up . emoticon
    1756 days ago
    You figured it out
    1756 days ago
    1756 days ago
    If I skipped breakfast, results would be disastrous! But I could not track in advance; I change my mind too much. Good job on evaluating yourself emoticon
    1756 days ago
    Great post! I felt like I was reading my own words. For me - when I skip breakfast, I am usually making choices I didn't plan on later that day. If I eat breakfast, I usually am tracking it. When I track, I succeed (most of the time).
    1756 days ago
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