Apparently all I do now is update. Lol! I guess that means maintenance is going so well constant accountability isn't as important as it used to be.
I woke up a few mornings ago to a message from Sparkpeople stating that I was a motivator of the day, I'm not sure that my motivator quality is high, but it felt great to know that people find me motivational, I'm sure if I were on here more I might understand that.
Anyways, as for the update, I guess there's not much to update on. I am living. I am feeling very in tune with my mind, body and soul. I am actually just under 3 weeks from my 3 year maintenance anniversary and this anniversary I feel like I am at my very healthiest I have ever been. I have changed my thought process, my mindset and have really came into my own.
During my first year of maintenance I lived deathly afraid of gaining my weight back, every morning I woke up scared that I was going to wake up and be 300 pounds again. I understand why that first year is the hardest, it is the most mentally draining process. Switching over from the high of weight loss and the joy that comes seeing the numbers on the scale drop and the pride of seeing your hard work pay off to just maintaining. Obviously it is the goal to get to the point where you are just maintaining but trying to get your mind to switch to that mode is extremely difficult.
The second year of maintenance was more of a mental break year. I gained some weight, still kept in my goal range but I just kind of used the year as a reset. It was a hard year in a different aspect. It felt great to kind of take a break but dealing with the weight gain was hard and making sure that I didn't slip back into my old ways was even harder.
Luckily I have pulled through. I am less afraid of gaining the weight back, but have just enough fear to make sure that I don't. I still work out like a crazy person, but I fuel my body for it now. Really this roller coaster of weight loss and maintenance is crazy, it is hard and it is so worth it. It has been worth every drop of sweat, every tear, every breakdown, every smile, every accomplishment and every single second of life that I have gained. It's is a great feeling to know that you saved your own life and that you are making the best out of the life you have created.
There are so many times that it would be easier to just give up, skip the gym, eat like it's my last meal, but the feeling of accomplishment that comes from not giving up means so much more than giving in.
With the new year I have set some new goals, I decided years ago "resolutions" were pointless. Without a plan a resolution is just a thought. So here are my goals for 2015:
Do 5 consecutive pull-ups
Master a handstand
Complete a monthly fitness challenge each month
Workout for 30 minutes or run 3 miles every day
Continue Running streak
Run 1000+ Miles
Stay at or below 155 lbs. or size 7 jeans
Complete an obstacle race
PR 1 Mile
PR Half Marathon
Take 1st in my division
Run 2 half Marathons (I've already signed up for both)
Run 5 10k's (Already signed up for 2 of the 5)
I hope this year is as good to you as you are to it!!!
(Working on the handstand)
(Fit not Skinny)