SHANSHE
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It really HAS been awhile, hasn't it?

Friday, January 16, 2015

I haven't been here in a really long time...

~ My husband passed away on 12-22-14
~ I think I was in a mid-life crises before this happened and I think it's still in full swing. I am more confused about who I am now and what I believe than I ever was as a teenager.
~ It's time for me to take charge of my life and make it what I know it can be.
~ I don't know how to begin.
~ Blogging has been a huge help to me in the past.
~ I feel like I've lost part of me, yet, I think the best is yet to come.

WHAT TO DO??
I cannot promise I will stay here on spark or that I will blog everyday, but right now I feel so confused about my emotions, including the lack of emotions. I DO know that when I blogged here, I was more open about the real me and my wants, wishes, desires than anywhere else in my life. So, I think the first thing to start with, even if I pick up current blogging again is to go back and read my blogs from the beginning. Even if I'm not the person I was when I wrote them, maybe it will help me figure out who I am now or at least who I want to be.

Also, I think a logical place to start is my health. Regardless of who I turn out to be, 325 pounds (AGAIN) is simply unhealthy! I already KNOW that I will feel better if I drink more water, eat healthier and exercise. So, water is always my starting point... it's my babystep to bigger and better things and right now, it feels like all I can concentrate on is water and reading my old blogs...

Well, now you know where I am in the journey called life, I think it's called "Massive Hormonal State of Confusion!" emoticon

Hugs,
Shan
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  • KRZYKAT3
    you are too young for a mid life crisis :)

    one baby step at a time, the grieving process takes time.

    Maybe a list, I made one.. still working on it but I do like your idea of reading old blogs.. emoticon

    2369 days ago
  • ORCHIDLADY56
    I am so sorry about your husband, Shannon! My deepest sympathies! I hope things resolve for you and you are on the road to better health for yourself. emoticon
    2370 days ago
  • GOODHEALTH4EVER
    I TOO AM SORRY TO HEAR OF THE LOSS. OF YOUR HUSBAND. YOUR LOSS ALONE CAN MAKE YOU QUESTION MUCH. I WILL PUT YOU AND YOUR FAMILY, ON MY PRAYER LIST, IF THAT'S ALRIGHT WITH YOU.

    I HOPE THAT BEING BACK HERE BLOGING WILL HELP[ YOU FIND YOUR WAY.

    emoticon MY emoticon
    2377 days ago
  • BARBARAROSE54
    Was so sorry to hear about your husband. emoticon

    emoticon I sure have missed you Shannon, especially on Diva team and Lime team.

    Wishing you success in your journey to a healthier you.

    2380 days ago
  • RORYLYONS
    Sending hugs & prayers...So sorry to hear of you dh passing.. emoticon
    2380 days ago
  • no profile photo CD1479887
    emoticon emoticon emoticon So sorry for your loss!
    2380 days ago
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