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An unpleasant reality check

Friday, January 16, 2015

My mom called this morning and cancelled her trip out to see me.
Yesterday she had called to tell me how much she was looking forward to seeing me, how she wanted to just spend time with me, even if just in silence (if Ethel was being mean and my pain was high).
Guess I should cancel the hotel reservation, and will definitely get charged.
I will give myself today to be sad. I think that's only fair.
Am hoping to bounce back soon, but feeling quite deflated at the moment.
Be well Spark pals.
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  • 2BDYNAMIC
    Hope you are doing well .......... reading late .....(so hard to keep up w/ all blogs) ............. my work interferes ........... darn!
    1253 days ago
  • OOLALA53
    Just saw this, my sweet. Tough!

    Just keep doing your best to have great meals (and snacks, if you need 'em) and hang on during the hours in between, no matter what. You'll never be sorry you did. Life won't necessarily get easier, but it will be one less problem to fret about. And not a trivial one.

    You are so loved!
    1255 days ago
  • IYA_EKUNDAYO
    I am so sorry Bren.
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    1260 days ago
  • TRENTDREAMER
    I am really sorry to hear that.

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    1268 days ago
  • KAILYNSTAR
    Go figure.

    Sorry for what happened, but if anything... emoticon Whew!

    Hope you're doing alright. I haven't been on the site much, too much going on here.

    Hugs.
    1270 days ago
  • CARRILU
    Awww dang it..................
    Humans are the worst! I can say that with authority as I am one:(
    She just gave you a great gift, confirmation once and for all that there is nothing wrong or reject-able about you Bren. She is not well. As an 8 year old you couldn't possibly know that but now you can know and accept and love you for you. This is not about me but I have a mom who just doesn't like me. It took me FOREVER to realize that very simple fact and I am no longer confused or baffled by her behavior. It's actually okay and I feel bad for her for feeling so guilty and trying. Sometimes we have a nice time (no more than two hours) but for the most part, I have learned that I just can't make that woman like me. So be it.
    You are an awesome person, I don't think she could handle the contrast between the two of you. All that goodness that is you was developed in her absence that's gotta be hard to face and know. She didn't break you at all. Sad? I give myself "mourn days" too I think that's super healthy of you.
    She missed out again, if only she knew..............
    1273 days ago
  • JCARDINAL
    So sorry. Sending you lots of hugs and giggles!! emoticon emoticon
    1273 days ago
  • SOUTHPONDCAMP
    thinking of you....that stinks.


    1275 days ago
  • _RAMONA
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    1275 days ago
  • CHERRY-TREE
    I'm so sorry.
    Something is definitely quite wrong with your mom, don't let it get to you. (I know it probably will, and that's logical, but just saying try to not take this personal).
    Sounds like somehow she is scared. Of something. Like, maybe she cannot measume up to expectations she thinks you have of her. Just guessing of course. It's HER issue anyway.
    Thinking of you. emoticon
    1275 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/17/2015 10:27:58 AM
  • SWEETNEEY
    What a bummer!!!! you are beautiful emoticon
    1275 days ago
  • DSJB9999
    really sorry to hear this, mum's can be a little challenging sometimes can't they! love and hugs from us here at Spark! emoticon emoticon
    1276 days ago
  • WARRIORGIRL121
    Oh honey, I'm so sorry! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1276 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
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    1276 days ago
  • MUSICALLYMINDED
    You are such a sweet person... it really shows your character that you would be sad when anyone else would be enraged. I'm mad for you, though! How thoughtless, rude and inconsiderate! It makes you wonder if people are truly capable of change!
    1276 days ago
  • CATS_MEOW_0911
    Oh, Bren, hugs, hugs, HUGS. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine mentally preparing for that and then being let down. Take as many days as you need to be sad, and know that you are loved.

    1276 days ago
  • MEWHENRYSMAMA
    Oh, Sweet Friend!
    You sure do deserve a day (maybe two, get it out) to feel sad! Obviously your Mom still has "issues"! I am just sorry she got your hopes up and caused you any sorrow!
    I wish I was there to give you a gentle hug!
    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!
    Much Love,
    Mary
    1276 days ago
  • AAAACK
    It sucks that you were vulnerable to her again and she let you down again. I'm mad at her for that.

    1276 days ago
  • MAMADWARF
    That blows!
    1276 days ago
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