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Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Usually this space is full of optimistic tales of progress and success -- sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows, as the old song says.

Tonight is different.

Tonight is (dunt, dunt, duhhhhhhhhhh . . .):

The question: What happened to my recently-cemented habit of no mindless, late night snacking last night?

My "true confession" is that that habit went right out the window!

Why? is the logical follow up question. Or, What happened?

Was there a neon sign on in my house that said "Kitchen Open Late"?


BUT, the kitchen was, in fact open late, and, to me, it was like there was a beacon or spotlight in the night, drawing me in.

Maybe someone left the door of the refrigerator open and that was the light I saw?


All I know is, I ate dinner and had lots of calories left over. I felt good.

I felt confident.

Next thing I knew, I was eating . . . a serving of leftover tuna casserole (yes, in addition, to the ravioli we had for dinner), a small container of chocolate pudding, a chocolate rice cake with peanut butter, and a bowl of watermelon sherbet.

Fortunately, there wasn't any popcorn in the house or I would have been downing copious quantities of that, dripping in melted butter.

It's also a good thing that I'm too lazy to actually get in the car and go out in the cold to get whatever it is I'm craving at the moment.

I really didn't have much in the house that I could do a lot of damage with, thanks to my new healthy eating/grocery shopping plan, so I don't think I hurt myself too much. Which, of course, isn't the point.

The point is, I COULD HAVE.

Why did this happen?

The best I can figure is that a couple of factors conspired to cause me to have a momentary (wait this is TRUE confessions) - an evening long - lapse of . . . what? Patience? Judgment? Sanity?

Not sure, but it was definitely a lapse.

The first factor, I believe, was the fact that I only got about 5 hours of sleep the night before. Definitely not enough and that meant that I was extremely tired. Never a good state to be in when you need to make good decisions.

I think the other factor was that I let myself get too hungry. I had a long session at the gym that day -- strength training and cardio -- about an hour of each. That meant I really torched a lot of calories. On top of that, I was very low on my calories for the day, even after eating full meals. So, I had nowhere near the amount of fuel I needed to get me through the night.

Both of the above factors alone might be enough to cause me to have a mini-binge and together, they did me in. But, that's ok. I'm learning from it.

Tomorrow's another big workout day for me -- strength training and 60 minutes of water aerobics -- and I know I have to plan my calories better so that my body has what it takes to meet the demands I place upon it and recover properly. That means I'll probably have a bigger breakfast and a snack with carbs and protein as soon as I get home from the gym.

And tonight, I need to get a full 8 hours of rest. Which means I'm off to bed right now.

One last thing before I go . . . my progress on this month's virtual walk:

Miles to Sleeping Bear Dunes = 110

Jan. 1 = 1.6 miles
Jan. 2 = 2 miles
Jan. 3 = 4.1 miles
Jan. 4 = 8.4 miles
Jan. 5 = 3 miles
Jan. 6 = 4.6 miles
Jan. 7 = 6 miles
Jan. 8 = 7.3 miles
Jan. 9 = 4.1 miles
Jan. 10 = 5.1 miles
Jan. 11 = 6.6 miles
Jan. 12 = 6.5 miles
Jan. 13 = 6.1 miles and counting

Miles to go = 44.6 miles to go

Good night, SparkPals.

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  • KBS2344
    Way to be honest!!! Your blogs are so entertaining! emoticon keep up the good work!
    1544 days ago
    I can identify with this blog. At least you did not do a lot of damage by getting off track. I am having to get back on track RIGHT NOW for letting my guard down after binge eating for about 7 or 8 days. The sad thing is that I had just lost 8 pounds. Hopefully, I won't do this again for I can think of excuses but not one is justified for such actions. Ha!

    Best wishes.
    1546 days ago
    Good job analyzing the reasons.
    1553 days ago
    We all have lapses. It has happened to me a lot. the important thing is to get back up again the next day and start again!
    1553 days ago
    Dottie & Arlene already said it hon - eating fuel that your body needs is NOT a sin! I wish I had copied off inspirational quote I came across yesterday: trust your body's wisdom; it is not a machine!
    (Mindless snacking is what I did Fri night - when I met a friend for dinner & ordered an appetizer of onion rings to share! A.) certainly didn't NEED an "appetizer"
    B.) deep-fried OR's were a crappy choice!)
    1554 days ago
    well - at least you've admitted what happened, sought root causes and now you can move on.

    Yay for you.
    1554 days ago
    I have to remind myself every afternoon, when my kids are snacking, that I don't have to snack with them. The urge is not me! The urge can not control me, it can't force me to eat, but boy it sure is hard sometimes. I have a thing for popcorn too.
    1558 days ago
    I overeat at night when I am overtired, too. And there are certain foods that I just can't emoticon keep in the house--ever. Spark has some great suggestions for healthy late-night snacks, like a rice cake with 1 T peanut butter.

    Be sure to plan some protein snacks for those long workout days. I like 100 calorie packs of unsalted almonds. (They are great because I can keep a pack right in the pocket of my gym bag.)
    1558 days ago
    Too familiar ,indeed .
    Happens to me too.
    We get passed it and carry on. Yes??? but sure we do because emoticon

    emoticon emoticon we are emoticon

    1558 days ago
  • EDWARDS1411
    I have to agree with MOVING_ARLENE! Some people downplay water aerobics, but after my hour of aqua fitness, I'm famished. And add to the equation the need for sleep your body needed energy. You are doing great - keep up the good work!!!
    1559 days ago
    Do you think it was your body craving food -- sounds like it to me! Not a lapse at all.
    1559 days ago
    While I appreciate your fessing up.......the above mentioned was certainly not a sin. You worked out very hard causing your muscles to go into protein breakdown, Unfortunately, at the same time you were very low on calories. Your body wanted to move into protein synthesis to make new cells and create protein turnover but didn't have enough fuel. Your cells were screaming for nutrients. You're lucky you didn't consume a Buick! This has an easy fix, more nutrients throughout the day, especially about an hour before your work out and an hour after.

    It was a cellular issue. Nothing to do with will power,or mindless eating

    You're doing great and your body is changing rapidly. Oh that learning curve!
    1559 days ago
    Sounds all too familiar. I have had at least 3 of those "light from the kitchen drawing me in" nights. Sounds like you are doing great in so many other areas. Keep that up and the rest will fall into place. emoticon
    1559 days ago
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