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Day 12

Monday, January 12, 2015

First day of class. I'm anxious as heck and tempted to skip it, but I won't.
I had a very strange weekend full of inner tension, anxiety, and emotional lability.
I understand the triggers, but not the magnitude of these emotions. I think it may be wise to look into a mood stabilizing medication to help me function better under stress; this morning I called a psychiatrist, so I'll see how long it takes to get an appointment. Until then, I will cope with exercise, meditation, music. The rigidity of expectation vs reality is a form that does not serve and must be dissolved. My mind has returned to a tranquil state. Floating.

"To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don't grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float."
-Alan Watts
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  • KIPPER15
    Good luck with class. You can do it!
    2076 days ago
    Hope your first day of class went well!
    2078 days ago
    Good luck kicking off the semester! If the psychiatrist you called doesn't have anything soon, maybe you can go through the student counseling center and get a referral from them. Hope your classes are off to a good start!
    2078 days ago
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