Saturday, January 10, 2015
According to the Beck Diet Solution today's the day I'm supposed to choose two, sensible, healthy diets. After much contemplation I've decided to start out with Dr. Ian Smith's 6 week Shred. I chose Shred for a couple of different reasons. 1., I have two girlfriends who tried Shred, loved it, and not only lost weight on the plan but were both able to maintain their losses for the past year. 2., After skimming the book I've found the meal plan to be one I can easily follow as it's not too far off from how I eat right now. And 3., The plan contains no calorie counting, no complicated recipes to learn and no hours spent obsessing over something I'd really rather not think about in detail.
Not today. Not right now.
I don't usually put so little thought into anything that's this important to me but right now...I just don't have it in me to think too deeply. Not about my diet, or about much of anything else. Because on New Year's Day, one of my closest friends died suddenly and extremely unexpectedly from a brain hemmorhage. And ever since then... well, to say I'm not really all here is an understatement. Everyday I wake up, work out, and care for my daughter of course but much of this is done on autopilot and more often than not I find myself crying in the middle of each, mundane task. But as a lifelong emotional eater the fact that I'm not binge eating my way through my grief is a major miracle. So for right now, I give myself permission to not be perfect. I will not feel guilty for relying on packaged (albeit, healthy) foods instead of cooking everything from scratch. I will not berate myself for doing 40 minutes on the elliptical instead of an hour. And I won't feel bad for looking to a book to tell me what I'm going to eat for the next 6 weeks instead of planning everything myself. I'm only human after all.