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What is food to me?

Friday, January 09, 2015

I posted this somewhere else on the site in response to a team question. I thought it was blog worthy enough to re-post on my page.

what is food to me? emoticon Food to me is a lot of things. I found myself the other day Mad/Irritated/Hungry and telling my mom that she doesn't understand what I'm going through. She does, she is going through this with me. She gave up cigarettes and is dieting as well. At the time I was irate. I was telling her "You don't know what I am going through, I have nothing now! The only two things in life that bring me joy are smoking and eating! Now I've been told by the Dr I cant do either!" Thinking about that in retrospect, it kinda hurts that I have let myself get that/this far out of control. The hardest thing about food is you cant live without it. Cigarettes sucked to kick for a few days yes, but now that I'm done I'm done. Its easy to tell yourself you cant smoke ever again and just avoid them like the plague. Food is much different you need it to live! When you have an addiction or dependence on it to bring you happiness its bad. You can't just avoid it or steer clear of it you know, you are forced to look into yourself and actually work on the problem. I was married for 7 years. After a while my ex-wife turned into my eating buddy. Our "date nights" turned into where do you want to go for dinner and our outings and everything started to revolve around food. Where are we going to eat? No lets don't go there because I prefer this buffet better. That wasn't healthy. I don't know how long it is going to take to break those negative associations with food and change the way I perceive food. I hope its sooner rather than later. I have kicked drugs and alcohol in my past. Recently a 17 year affair with cigarettes real "addictions" and it isn't as hard as this I need a complete brain reprogramming when it comes to food. I am working on it a bit at a time though and I know I will move through it!
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    The behaviorist at the program I was in last yer used to tell us it takes several weeks to unlearn a habit. Those food addict responses:
    I'm happy, I should grab something yummy to celebrate
    I'm sad, I should grab something yummy to drown my sorrows
    I'm bored, I should have some munchies to entertain myself
    I'm tired, I should eat a little pick me up
    and on, and on, and on.
    You're absolutely right, you can't avoid food entirely, but you can unlearn those behaviors and learn to make better choices to respond to your emotions. I know, because I lost 100 lbs, and manged to keep it off for couple of years. Unfortunately, like a lot of addicts, I've kind of fallen off the wagon, but that behaviorist had an answer or that too. He usually told us that the nice thing about falling off the wagon is that it won't go anywhere so it's always waiting when you're ready to pick yourself up and get back on.
    After some serious Christmas binging, It's time for me to do exactly that. Sounds like you're well on your way. Keep it up.
    2318 days ago
    Posting here helps a lot and I meet with a counselor once a week as well as my Dr. I see at most every other week but have been going weekly for a while now. I am learning the things I need to move forward but that is how it feels sometimes still.
    2318 days ago
  • GINA180847
    Wow, you tell it like it is. Food is the hardest addiction to lick by far because we can't live without it. Robbie, is there a Tops meeting or some other support group that you could sit and talk to others or maybe it is best to stick with just Spark for now? It is just that you need some new habits to replace the oral fixation. When I was in the most misery I really had no one to talk to and I know how that feels. But man is a social animal and needs to connect. That means all of us. I don't think I could ever eat my way to my heighest weight but I can never forget about it and just eat and live. Spark and a weight loss support group in this tiny community are huge for me. Keep on posting this is an excellent avenue.
    2318 days ago
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