Day 2 emotions seesawing..Make a Wish..
Thursday, January 08, 2015
I had no idea how much 'candy crush' and 'scramble with friends' kept my emotions at bay! When I was overwhelmed I zoned out in games, forgot I was overwhelmed and happily moved into my next tasks. Now I'm like a fish out of water floundering, reaching to munch and numb on salt, sugar, crunchy, I'm sad, hopeless, overwhelmed as I struggle with really hard things in my life. It's like a lost an anchor that was working to keep me from going nuts snacking when things got hard! I have to find a new anchor. I'm hoping spinning the spark wheel and journaling will help.
Good news 'Make a Wish' approved my 11 year old's wish to be a princess and dance with a prince!! It's sad because it makes me face how ill she is to qualify, but I've also teared up repeatedly in thankfulness for the program and Lexi getting her wish granted, she soo deserves such honoring of her life, she's fought so hard to stay alive....