Day before the Weight Management Clinic Assessment.
Thursday, January 08, 2015
A quiet morning planned before Bible study this afternoon. I was thinking of going out for sushi this evening, but I think we'll just grill a couple of steaks to have with baked potato tonight for dinner. I love sushi, but going without solid food for 3 months, I know it is steak that I will miss the most. Although it is -14 or something ridiculous outside, I have my lovely jenn air propane grill on my stove. I bought the jenn air to be able to grill healthy meals for hubby all year, and he is truly handsome. Still fits into the same pants he wore 30 years ago in university (although he is slightly larger than he was in high school- he can wear his high school shirts, but John Jr is still wearing the lined jeans hubby wore in high school). I digress.
Tomorrow hubby and I report to the hospital for my initial assessment at the weight loss clinic for my initial assessment. I am encouraged to bring one support person and hubby is it. I hope that I am accepted into the program although I am both nervous and excited. It is the Optifast program. A 3 month liquid diet (Optifast) which is done under medical supervision although there is a full team. It is based on the premise that overweight people are all insulin resistant to some degree and the Optifast is to detox the body and get insulin resistance under control, then re-introduce foods slowly. Although the Optifast is only for 3 months, it is a six month program with continuing education for the year and the ability to get a prescription for Optifast from your doctor in future if needed.
I know that this is not a magic bullet and that it will involve commitment and sacrifice on my part. I think that the behaviorist and psychologist will be the most helpful members of the medical team for me. My head knows what I should do, but with all the stress I've been through - which has been since Charles was 14 and a very troubled teen, and between the 3 kids, hubby's job loss, etc it has been non-stop for years. So basically my mind knows what to do and I need to get my heart/emotions under control so my brain has a chance.
My doctor was very upfront that the excuses have to stop. I just need to pull myself together and make a lifetime commitment. I have known my doctor for over 30 years and he has delivered 2 of my 3 children. He went to the clinic many, many years ago and has kept his weight off since through a lot of hard work. For instance, he changed the location of his office so he could bike to work. He is physically active each and every day. He has also encouraged his staff to attend the clinic, and his nurse has lost over 250+ lbs and kept it off well over 10 years. So both my doctor and I KNOW that the clinic works if we put the effort into it.
I'm still very nervous/excited. I'll be glad when I am accepted into the program and can get started. If I'm not a candidate I don't know what I'll do.