"oh, Christmas treats...Oh, christmas treats..."
Wednesday, January 07, 2015
Well, the week before Christmas and the week after proved to be the equivalent of me hitting a brick wall!! Consistent exercise ceased, breakfast was hit and miss and darn that See's candy store minutes from my house! I simply walked in to buy the traditional treats that my children (all adults now) have grown accustomed to and *BAM*, it was like being sucker punched but in a yummy chocolaty good way!!! *SIGH* I spent those 2 weeks snacking and "tasting" everyone's goodies. This has resulted in my finding 3 of those pounds I had lost and, even worse, feeling that old familiar blucky-ness. Though I wallowed in profuond disappointment for awhile, I can now sit here and list the valuable lessons I gained (along with those 3 pounds):
1. One of my sons said, "Mom, you have done so well you can reward yourself with some See's candy, it's Christmas!"
That See's candy did not act as a reward, it was a torpedo aimed squarely at my hard earned success. If I really wanted to reward myself, I would have went out while everyone was noshing on their chocolate and bought myself a new pair of pants, a cute pair of shoes or simply went for a long walk making sure to notice how great it feels to not be out of breath!!
2. I am still wrapped up tight in "all or nothing" thinking. The reality is having a piece of See's candy (or two) was not the real issue. The issue was as soon as I had the chocolate I figured, "why not have another, I've already "blown" it or " why not go out to dinner and order regular soda since I'm off track anyway." My choices snowballed into an avalanche of really bad choices. I could have simply enjoyed a special treat and then made sure to keep in place the other good habits I have established.
3. Starting again...and again...and again...is not a bad thing. The bad thing would be to stop starting! Realizing that, for me, this is a lifetime pursuit has been powerful. I am learning to keep the big picture in mind. A couple of weeks of less than healthy eating and activity does not translate into "game over".
4. Lastly, now that I am slowly putting back into place my healthy routine, I am realizing how much I deserve to not allow myself to "take a break" from what I know makes me the healthiest and happiest version of me!! I am still dealing with trying to not "disappoint" anyone by being a buzz kill around food, I didn't want to NOT be the fun one around my family so I slipped back into the same role I played for years. The over indulging, live in the moment, " I love my curves" kind of girl that has weighed (literally) me down for years.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!