Welcome to another non-award winning blog!
I dropped my daughter off at school today, as I usually do. But today was a little bit different, as I was telling my friend D.
I was listening to "Uptown Funk" by Bruno Mars, right after the wee one got out of the car. I was WAITING for her to get out of the car, as I knew it was next on the playlist, and I wasn't sure I wanted her listening to it.
(Hey, I told her I loved her and have a good day- don't judge! lol).
So I was groovin' (and that sounds old school, but so does the song), pulling out of the parking lot, and a couple of upstanding, young gentlemen (middle school dudes. my daughter's peers.
) smiled at me and gave me a 'what's up'.
As I said, in my previous (award-winning blog!
) I feel different dropping my daughter off at school (along with a lot of other things, mind you).
But this is a kind of icky different. Still cool, lol. But...kinda gross.
Anyhoo, I went about my ride, groovin' as I said, to Uptown Funk. I was dancing in the car. Like seriously, dancing. And the fatter me would have been embarrassed. Hell, the thinner-fat me was. But I pressed on. I was happy. I was having FUN. And it was BETTER than COFFEE ( I sh*t you not!).
People laughed at me, I got a few finger points, but I walked in to work happier than anyone there, and stayed that way much of the day.
Maybe it's not the fat that weighs us down.
Maybe it's the 'I should shrivel up and die and not ever eat in front of anyone or God help me shop in the plus-size section or if I fall down they'll all laugh at the fat chick and if I put that lasagna in my cart the line will nod knowingly or if I put carrots in the cart they'll all snort because they don't think I'm eating them or the order the salad because if I order the steak i'll embarrass myself and that guy only likes me because ...
It's exhausting worrying about what people think of you, ALL THE TIME. Forget about the weight on your hips.
HOW. MUCH. DOES. THIS. WEIGH. ON. YOUR. MIND.
(and really, how does this help you become thinner.)