yesturday started good but ended so so bad
Tuesday, January 06, 2015
yesturday morning i had my 6 months after my knee replacement check up in the hospital.it went good i am officialy crutches free.and unless i don´t have any pain etc in the next 6 weeks then he doesn´t want to see me for 6 months.if something does come up in the next 6 weeks he wants to see me in 3 months.so feeling good about that my cousin had sent me some money so i went and brought a new stability ball as i haven´t replaced mine when it broke a while back as well as 3 kettle bells a 2kg,a4kg and a 6kg. so like i said i was feeling really good.then yesturday evening got a call on skype to say that ayman had had an accident and they were at the hospital with him.i was imagineing allsorts till i eventually got to speak to lotfi(my arabisch leaves alot to be desired and his mother was also concerned so was hard to understand)apperantly ayman put his arm through a glass door.still not sure how that happened though.the glass took a good chunk off his skin off.apperantly he has a cut 10 cm long,2 cm wide and very deep.he was lucky in the fact that it just nipped his artery without breaking through it it was that close .because off how wide the stuck took out is they can´t sew it together so are treating it like a burn.they have a special burn bandage on it and lots of iodine.he has to have the bandage changed daily and has been given antibiotics,two types of painkillers one for in the day and a stronger painkiller for the night so he will sleep through it .because of the stress his asthma is also playing up.
here is a copy off a post i posted on one of my team chat threads today.
everything is going wrong that can go wrong,my son is in tunisia with his dad and he had a bad accident there.i am here in german with our two other children as their school starts tomorrow and we have a school plight here so i can´t go to tunisia and hmy son can´t fly here yet.should be home saturday night if all is well but i feel such a terrible mother being here while he is there in such pain.i know he is in good hands my husband is there ,his mother and father and my husbands sisters etc but it is still not the same as a mother,i am eating junk which i know in the long run wont help but can´t seem to stop i am even eating when not hungry i know it is wrong but i can´t seem to stop.i hate this ,how i let my feelings dictate my food choices i also hate thif feeling of helpfulness and hopeless ness re my son.sorry didn´t want to be a debbie downer.i should be grateful it isn´t worse and i really am but my feelings are still there.
so as you can see i am again letting emotional and stress eating rule.i have also broke my no soda streak which i am also not proud of.why is it when i know i shouldn´t be doing something i do it anyway.will i ever conquer this.on the plus side though at least i am aware i am doing it even as i do it so that must be good.now we have the worry that ayman wound doesn´t get infected.aöso i don´t know if this is going to affect his operation that got rescheduled to the 30th of this month.as i said till i get to hold ayman in my arms and really feel that he is ok i think i am going to have theese guilty feelings.
anyway thanks for letting me let off steam here and being there for me as usual.take care and keep smiling.