January 1, 2015 - A New Start
Friday, January 02, 2015
Happy New Year, everyone!!
I noted in my status (which is going to disappear at some point) how much I appreciate my Spark friends. I really do!!! I thank you for all your support for the past (I can't believe this) seven years. The cast of characters has changed during this time, but the support has remained constant.
I was very quiet last year. The year started with uncertainty regarding my job situation. I was not working at the end of last year because of a budget situation. I thought it would get resolved relatively quickly. In the end, it did not, and after being told at the beginning of February that I would be returning to work within a week or so, I was then told that my project was cancelled and that there was no job!! I slipped into a bit of a funk about this. I finally found a much better job. There were startup issues with that position as well, but eventually it worked out. These are temporary jobs (IT projects), and I am at the mercy of the client. I cannot work until all budget approvals are in place, etc.
To make a long story short, I was almost placed in the same situation this year. I am out of work at this point because my client (a pharmaceutical company) closes between Christmas and New Year's. Unfortunately I do not get paid for this time. In addition, I am out of work for two weeks, even though the office is not closed for that long. But the good news is that I am going back to work on Monday!!! The reason I was almost in the same position is that in November I was told that my contract would be extended (same as the previous year). It now turns out that only three of us (out of about 20) have been called back right away. The others will probably have to wait until the beginning of February. I have filed for unemployment for these two weeks. Not sure if I will get it, but I should.
The year ended with having to say goodbye to my sweet dog. That was five weeks ago. I still miss him terribly. I have also had to deal with my aging mother, who is very pleasant but also very stubborn and hard to deal with. I have found out that she has kidney issues which are the result of not drinking enough water, but this has yet to really play out. She needs to go to a kidney doctor, and this hasn't happened yet. She will be 87 next month. She is also nearly deaf, and this has created a slew of other problems, including the fact that she has pretty much isolated herself from everyone.
Anyway, I completely lost my way in 2014. I set a goal to walk 5 million steps in 2014 according to my Fitbit. I actually did achieve this goal, and I hope to write a blog about it. However, I feel like I am in worse shape now than I was a year ago. I have gained about 15 lbs. over the course of the year. I have also neglected my strength training almost completely. It's not the first time that my weight has bounced around in the last 6 years (since I dropped my initial excess weight with Sparkpeople). At some point I graduated from "obese" to "overweight" on the BMI scale, and I have never left the overweight range. A couple of days ago when I weighted my self, though, I was very close to being obese again. Maybe it was a bad day, because I have not seen that weight again. However, I am very upset that I saw things falling apart in 2014 and just let the trend continue.
So, this is a new beginning. I told one of my friends today that I could say that I "hope" that 2015 will be the year I turn it around, but I can't hope. I have to make it happen. I've done it before under adverse circumstances. I can do it again.
I have not been in any challenges for the last few weeks. That feels kind of weird. At one point I felt that maybe the whole challenge format wasn't working for me anymore and that I should just drop all of them. But have signed up for two challenges that will be starting soon. I intend to take them a lot more seriously than I did last year, and I will try my best to be a more active team member and more of an encourager than I have turned into.
I know this was sort of rambling. Thank you for seeing it through.