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I've hit my rock bottom

Sunday, December 28, 2014

I went to the cheap movie theater last night with my girlfriend and couldn't fit in the seat. I fit but it was painful, and we had to search for a bigger seat. I can rationalize this by saying the seats here have always been snug, but I know in my heart they have never been this bad. I'm tipping the scales at over 300lbs. I'm too scared to weigh myself. I've had several things occur in my life that I can blame this on but the truth remains I only have myself to blame. It's time to get serious about ME...about my health and self esteem. I have to get strong and do this- not on Jan 2nd, but now! Not as a new years resolution but as a forever resolution. I know that I may fall down, but I will dust myself off and keep trying! Every joint in my body hurts, the tiredness, the self hatred it needs to go away. Tomorrow will begin my 100th try, but this time I'm not giving up! I'm 35 and strong, and I want to live! I'm going to blog daily, track my food daily, and exercise daily even if it's for 10 steps will get me there! And along the way I'm going to release some of this pain instead of stuffing it down with food!
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  • RD03875
    Start slow, make a plan, track your food, do a little bit more each day. You CAN do it!
    1542 days ago
    Thank you for your comment! I am going to weigh myself in the morning on the work scale! I will track my water..shouldn't be a problem because I drink a lot now!
    1543 days ago
  • no profile photo EVIE4NOW
    Go For it! You Can do it! Baby steps are the way to go, but besides for tracking be consistent with drinking your 8 glasses of water each day and getting enough sleep Weigh yourself now... so you can see your weekly or monthly progress and know where you need to make changes. You are wise to do it now before the extra weight starts causing problems like diabetes or high blood pressure.
    All the best to you.
    1543 days ago
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