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December 13th

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Well this is the first time in a long time that I ate and just keep eating or at least that's how I feel right now. I ate a 6"roast beef subway sandwich and baked chips for lunch. Not to bad but as I walked past Ben and Jerry's ice cream shop that brownie called my name and I didn't resist. Good news is I at least didn't get the ice cream. Bad news is now I feel like my stomach is going to burst. Is it the guilt I feel or is it real discomfort? I don't know but I have a suspicion that it might be a little of each. Another factor is I was so uncomfortable that I skipped my lunch time walk, more guilt????

Trying to understand why this happened. I was hungry, but I was also very irritated at a co-worker. Why would I let something or someone influence me like that? Am I using that as a excuse to eat myself sick? Yes I know stress is a factor in my overeating but then I am stressed tremendously when I eat to much. That is a no win situation. I have got to find a way to stop this cycle of abuse.

Ok I have the rest of the day to correct my attitude and get in some exercise.

Things I can do to turn this around!!!
1 walk during my afternoon break
2. meditate for 20 minutes tonight
3. do my yoga stretching routine

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  • ICEWYNDE
    Hi Portia (what a pretty name!)

    I'm not a Psychologist (don't even play one on TV!), but it seems to me that in the incident you describe you blamed yourself for the conflict with the co-worker and had to "punish" yourself by sabotaging your eating plan.

    You ask "why can't I stick with it?" a lot. Maybe you need to turn it around and ask "Why am I NOT LETTING myself stick with it?". "Why can't I give myself permission to be successful?" Is there someone else's voice in your head telling you that you are not good enough? For me, its my Mom's voice.

    I think that you are doing the work and that you will figure this out. I know that you will be successful -- even babysteps will get you to your goal in the end if you take enough of them.
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    1436 days ago
  • STEVEN2GO2
    I hope you were able to stick to your plans for the rest of the day.

    Is there any way you can find somehow to avoid the irritating coworker so it does not cause you to spiral down?

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    1437 days ago
  • NHES220
    It's good to analyze things and figure out why they happened and what you can do differently next time. Don't let them win!
    1437 days ago
  • JIMA64
    This happens to all of us at some point. Maybe you just needed to let loose and have it. You recognize this and are correcting it.
    1438 days ago
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