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Mindfulness and Company on the Journey

Tuesday, December 09, 2014

I'm back. I've been away for months...and before that I wasn't really participating. My weight is now higher than it was the first time I started SparkPeople, and while it's not at an all time high, it's close. I'm two pounds away from the BMI "obese" category. That's a fact.

So, while the seasons say it's not an ideal time to lose weight (in Chinese medicine, this is a time of gathering and keeping resources), it's also clear that holding excess weight is not healthy for me. I'm going to reframe that Chinese medicine idea and instead notice that gathering and keeping resources can mean many things! Resources are things that are helpful...and warm, nourishing, healthy food is a resource! And so is being active and allowing myself to feel that sparkle that comes from moving my body.

I'm also aware that the last time I was here actively, I tracked my food for about a week (staying within calorie range) and the scale did not budge. I thought (ha ha!) that plateaus and middle-aged "stuck" were for other people, but that was wrong. A tool I'm going to apply to this is *patience* -- and awareness that eating healthy food is worthwhile, even if the scale moves slowly.

The next thing I want to bring into my awareness is...*awareness*! I am currently investing in myself personally and professionally by participating in a two-year program in Hakomi, which is a mindfulness- and somatic (body)- based psychotherapy program. My goal is to become a practitioner. Clearly, I am the ultimate testing ground for the principles of mindfulness. I have been an erratic meditator, although I practice the principles of being present when I am counseling, coaching, making music, and dancing. However, I have not been practicing mindfulness principles with myself or my eating habits at all, and that is a goal I am here to begin.

One thing I know about myself is that I can jump into jackrabbit panic starts here on Sparkpeople...and then let them disappear. I don't want that to happen. My plan is to *re-read this blog again and at least one other person's blog and write another blog tomorrow* (if my power does not go out...big storm on the way). I know that changes come one step at a time.

Because I am not certain of the electric power situation, I'm not going to commit to tracking today (no internet = no ability to access Sparkpeople) but will instead commit to *drink at least five glasses of water or herbal tea today and to eat at least five to nine fruits and veggies today.*

I'll also *eat at least one meal in mindfulness today* with no distractions.

Last, as my title indicates, I'm here for company on the journey. I am so thrilled to see so many of you still here and participating. I'm aware that both *offering and receiving support* is essential in this journey, so I'm here to do both. I plan to *log in to Sparkpeople at least once per day.* See you on the path.

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  • BILLB000
    Sorry this is late commenting. I discovered your blog a couple of days ago and have been thinking about it. i admire you in wanting to refocus, and begin again. I think it was Diana Nyad who said "...never, never give up." Patience , small steps, and being mindful along the journey are sooo important. You certainly have the right combination. I will be excited to hear of your successes as we move into 2015. My success, with respect to SP have been in being part of the ongoing 8 week challenges. Just knowing I have to report to my 'team' daily for 8 weeks seems to inspire me to try harder.
    I have a good feeling this is going to be a good year for you. Blessings.
    1588 days ago
    Waxing and waning here...generally holding my own, but never with the confidence, always shaky in my progress...but at least the zig-zagging is overall going well.

    It's OH-SO-EASY to be knocked off-center, to lose that resolve, that MINDFULNESS which confidently knows what works, what doesn't and enables us to steadily move forward.

    I've done some powerful journaling under my therapist's guidance and have written some pretty insightful, smart stuff.

    Too bad I don't "hold onto" all those smarts! I like the idea of re-visiting our insights, should dust off my journals and re-read. Thank you for that "nudge!"

    How wonderful to see you back with our SparkFamily! :-)

    1592 days ago
    I find myself in pretty much the same situation. I am on the website and boards on a daily basis, but my resolve is gone.

    One thing I am trying to do, is to let go of all of the preconceived notions of how I "should" eat, what I "should" eat, and to feel more comfortable in my own body.

    I have always been so intent on "changing", that I have never taken the route to change from the inside.

    I am definitely not sure of how I want to do any of this, but the first thing I am trying to do is to let go of all of the emotional stuff attached to food.

    Not going to be any kind of a quick fix for sure, but what I have been doing is just not working.

    God Bless and good luck on your now journey, and hoping to join you along the way.


    1592 days ago
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