Friday, November 28, 2014
I went to bed feeling sick last night due to a stomach filled with too much food; most of it unhealthy food. As I laid there, I saw my life flash before my eyes - literally. I was focusing on this past year in particular. A year ago, my mother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She passed away on May 6th - her 86th birthday. While we were not particularly close, she was my mother and, well, she was my mother. With both parents up in Heaven, I began to feel "what the heck, I'm only going to die anyway".
We also lost a very dear friend in March and then another dear friend in October.
I've allowed myself to get caught up in the fallacy 'it doesn't matter how we take care of ourselves in the long run". This attitude has resulted in me gaining back 20 lbs (you read that correctly) in 1 year!!!
This morning, I've realized how foolish and selfish this thought pattern is. I have grandchildren to stay healthy for - and I owe it to myself to stay healthy.
I'm not waiting until January 1, 2015. I have to get a grip now..... RIGHT NOW.
It's a good thing self-respect has no calories because I plan on feasting on that.