Its been over 200 days

since I've been here.
I've seen a lot of doctors, I've been on "rehab" (a german thing. they send you in a specialized clinic to get you back to work. Its 3-6 weeks with a lot of treatments like sport, group therapy, informations). It was nice, but it did not helped me as much as I expected. I found a view very very nice friends.
And I still do not know exactly why my lymphs are so big ... its a big maybe.
So I'm still under control of my doctors.
There are good times when I'm able to do some sport and work.
And there are bad times when its nearly impossible to climb up in the first floor where I live.
What I have to learn:
be patient with myself.
be kind with myself.
there will be days where I'm not able to run or to do some sport (oh my goodness. I've been to the gym and I really really thought I have to call the ambulance!)
But there are days where I CAN do it.

and the thing with losing weight. I had an appointment with the specialist while rehab. She was very pleased with the way I eat. But she has no clue why I do not lose weight. chrr .....