About a week ago I finally added a side-by-side, before and after shot to my sparkpage. In the past I've showed before shots on a couple blogs, but they were full body shots. I also have some before shots in my photo gallery. These photos serve two purposes. First to remind me to be proud of the progress I've made. Second, to remind me that I never want to look like that again!
This is the first time, however, that I've posted a before and after close up of my face. I planned to just throw it into my photo gallery. Something for me to look at occasionally. Or if so inclined, for other spark members to look at. I know I always enjoy a good before and after pic. My reaction to other's pics is usually a gasp and then a "wow" comment!
After first compiling my before and after head shot, I actually gasped at myself! I came across the before pic a couple weeks ago and I was in shock. I barely remember the pic, but I do remember the day. My friends and I went to see a show and spend the day in New York City. I remember thinking that I looked good that day. I liked what I was wearing and I was having a good hair day. I was even pleased with the pics we took. Well here I am, 3 yrs. later, looking at this photo and thinking, "omg, was I in denial!"
I know many of you that have lost weight have said the same thing about yourselves. "who is that person?" "I don't even recognize myself" or "did I really look like that?" I even showed it to my 19yr. old son and he said he doesn't remember me looking like that. (It was only 3 yrs. ago!) I look at it and I feel sorry for the old me. I was kidding myself back then. I did not look good. I was the F word. I look so puffed up and uncomfortable. It reminds me of those people on tv that put on a fat suit and walk around town to see if they are treated different. Or like the celebrities that play a fat person in a movie. (like Eddie Murphy in the Nutty Professor) You can sort of see the thin person inside.
Like I said, I usually post before pics and bury them in my gallery. But I decided to put this before and after on my sparkpage. Gotta say, it's unnerving looking at this blown up version of myself, day after day. Unnerving but necessary, I think. It will now be a constant reminder of the person I never want to be again. I do, however, plan on updating the after shot "when" I lose more weight. The current after is actually from last Christmas. So I am thinner now anyway.
This is also a reminder that no matter how slow or stagnant my progress has been lately, I've still come a long way and I need to celebrate that. So, I will keep the before photo of me looking like an overgrown Shirley Temple and be proud of it!