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Dirty Little Secret Is OUT!

Sunday, November 09, 2014

Last Monday I had my wake up call. I had just started my C25K running program the Saturday before and after getting on the scale that morning I knew I had to stop and make some changes. As hard as it was to admit to myself that I was failing myself by living my life I currently was. I did it....I looked in the mirror and saw the person I was, the person that I let myself become. emoticon While I love the person I am, I DO NOT love the "extra" of this person I saw. It was in that moment I knew that I had to stop the "lets be good for a couple weeks" cycle and really figure out what I needed to do to get ME back again.

So I made a weeks worth of goals and will take a few moments every Sunday to look back on the week and decide how I did and what needs to be changed for the week to come. In the past I have these grand ideas of starting a program and I see the wonderful month calendar and always think that I can do it ....and never do. Why do I never make it? That is an easy answer and one I had to admit to myself before I could REALLY begin to take back my life. The reason why I never could get past a few weeks is.....................


There I said it out loud ....I will get up do great all day and come home and eat crap. Or I will have every intention on getting a workout in and push it to "tomorrow", only that day never gets here and before I know it my "tomorrow" has turned into 6 months! I then get so mad at myself when I am at that 6 month marker because I look back and think "gosh I could have been at my goal by not if I would have kept going"! AND then because I feel sad for myself I eat! (Ahhhh my nasty little secret is out of the bag!)

Well as of last Monday I said.....NO....MORE! I am ending this abuse I put myself in. I am taking control of my life for the very first time because I have admitted to the dirty secret that would hold me back. I have wrapped my arms around it and it will NO LONGER have control over me. I am in control of me and I am coming to terms with the fears, the emotions and the reasons why I do not let myself be a success.

I am not going to overwhelm myself with a crazy workout program right now. Nope....I'm setting 5 goals for myself every week, along with logging onto here everyday. I am listening to The Spark on my iPhone when I travel and I am making daily victories. One day at a time, one week at a time....will all turn into my lifetime of happiness with ME. It is MY time to make the changes and to get that person I still see when I look in the mirror back.

Week 1 Goals and review -
1) Drink Shakeology daily – WIN….I drank my Shakeology every day, even when I traveled!
2) Run Monday, Wed and Fri (ended up running Mon, Wed and Sat)….still got in all 3 runs that I planned so I will take this as a WIN
3) Get daily water in – Need to work on this one more. While I was able to get in more I did not hit the level that I needed to daily.
4) NO SWEETS – I did have sweets, but the difference and the reason I will take this as a WIN too is that I put in my food journal everything I ate. I did not deprive myself anything and controlled the sugar. I did not let the sugar control me!
5) Journal everything I eat! – I did everything but one dinner this week and that was only because I forgot to go back onto Spark and journal. I did go in the next day and put in my dinner so there was still the accountability there for me. This too is a WIN for me because in the past I would do a couple days and give up!

Goals for Week 2 -
1) Drink Shakeology Daily
2) Run 3 times a week, Stretch 2 times a week for 30 min
3) Drink no less than 2 liters of water a day
4) Journal EVERYTHING I eat (including any sweets)
5) Self Love....find something daily that I love about myself
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    I hear ya! I'm there myself and making little goals at a time to push myself and feel better. Great job owning it and good luck!!! emoticon
    1625 days ago
    Awesome Goals!!! emoticon

    Keep up the GREAT work. You have a plan you are halfway there!!!
    1625 days ago
    I love this strategy Kim....slow and steady.

    That's kind of what I've been doing. JUST focusing on the C25, then I'll add the 21 day fix as I'm in the same self sabbatoge boat.

    we'll get this...I'm on Week 2 day 2 I think (I missed yesterday) emoticon
    1626 days ago
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    1626 days ago
    emoticon Planning is the key for sure. Decaf coffee helps me get over my sweet cravings. 1 level tsp of sugar is 16 calories, and sometimes I drink a mug of coffee, so I'll use 1 heaping tsp of sugar which is 23 calories. (I don't use artificial anything) But 16 calories, with a dash of 1/2 & 1/2, really helps detour the sweets cravings. I use decaf, since it almost counts as water, since there isn't any caffeine. Takes a while to drink a cup, so it really works good in taking the place of a sweet snack.
    You got this! emoticon emoticon
    1626 days ago
    I believe I am the QUEEN of self sabotage...
    Good plan, BTW
    1626 days ago
  • WINNIE1978
    I can totally relate to the self-sabotage.

    It sounds like you had a great week.

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