Facing the Music
Tuesday, November 04, 2014
It's November 4, 2014, and I'm forcing myself to face the music. I gave up. I quit. I have used lots of excuses to avoid dealing with my weight. Now, here I am, weighing 241lbs and feeling terrible. Not just emotionally terrible, but physically terrible. I am exhausted all the time. My stomach hurts from not feeding it the right stuff. I look terrible. My face is puffy from too much fat and sodium. My stomach is getting too big for Matthew to sit on my lap comfortably. My favorite pair of jeans are getting too tight.
So, here I am - starting over. For now, this is a private battle. I'm keeping my blogs and my page private for now. I started reading The Spark again, and need to set up my goals.
1.) Reach the healthy weight of 165 by April 2015
2.) Complete the Project Management Courses by March 2015.
3.) Take the Project Management Certification Test - October 2015
4.) I will be fit and healthy in time for my 41st birthday.
I want to stop letting food rule my life. Every day, I think about food and what my next "Treat" will be. I need to be honest and realistic about what I'm eating.
I'm not the person I see in the mirror. There is an active, happy, and fit person living under this fat. That Jennifer likes to run around outside with her kids, or has enough energy to get stuff done on the weekends. That Jen feels sexy and turns heads. That Jen signs up for fun classes like Zumba or dance lessons. That Jen is happy to pose in pictures!
Today is Day 1.
Today I go to the gym during lunch.
Today I drink my bottle of water before reaching for my Diet Coke.
Today I buy a healthy and delicious lunch.