The Good the bad and the Ugly
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
You almost think I should start out with the good.. but I am starting out with the bad.. which is I have been so off track or at least I feel that way.. last week I did not go to th gym at all to be honest I don't like the new gym I joined and thank God it was a pay as you go gym because I am not paying for November.. I hate being tied into a contract and this gym offers the option to pay cash or credit and work out and be done but not happy with the set up my old gym I worked it out where they will bill me monthly statement and i will pay.. of course it is 5 bucks extra but for me it is worth it. but any how I did not work out I ate like crap and it go really ugly.. by the end of the week I was bloated and tired and out of it..
This week I feel I am getting back on track.. but truth be told I am missing something that is lost . oh yea my motivation my determination my drive to lose weight.. I feel like my efforts are worthless meaning the more I work out the more I am squeaky clean the more I feel like I am not getting any where I can go weeks of working out eating wright and the scale dose not budge.. its the truth.. but let me eat a slice or two of pizza and bam there is 5lbs on.. its a vicious cycle and I am spinning my wheels I feel like I am on my spinning bike which I am doing everything right getting good cadence and my form is good I am at a target heart rate but I am not moving.. well you dont move on a spinning bike but that is how I feel with my program.. so that is the ugly of it..
The good which I will end with.. is that I don't want to give up... I can't give up.. I really really need to this and I need you.. and I need some kind of help, peace, or smack in the head.. maybe all of it.. so I am going to keep going.. that is all I can do ..
Thanks for reading ..